The Butterfly  

japantiger 44M
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6/4/2005 7:22 am

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The Butterfly

The Butterfly

"The butterfly has represented transformation in many cultures for ages. Our journey through life is much the same. As we pass through each stage, the person that emerges is totally different than the one before. It is frightening at times to break out of our "cocoon", to go from the known to the unknown. But when we do, the person we become is truly transformed; an entirely new world is opened up for us and the growth process continues on."


What does this make you think about? Does it remind you of any times in your life? Was there a time of change in your life that you were frozen with fear, or scared of the future, or excited about new possibilities? Was it a carefully planned and thought out stage of your life, or twist of fate? How have you changed in the last month? 6months? year? 5 years? 10 yrs?
What kind of butterfly are you now?

Japan butterfly

I remember when I first came to Japan. Why did I come here? I had a great business back home, wonderful parents and siblings. A nice home, 2 cars, lots of great friends and romantic possibilities. Dad's Sunday barbecues where all family and friends were always welcome. Brothers who were my best friends. A sister whom I could talk to about my women troubles. Friends who truly cared about me. Financial security. Hmmm, it was all good then. But - something inside of me wanted to come out. What was it? It was not happening in Southern California, where I had lived all my life til then. But was constantly being pulled and drawn to Japan. I attracted many Japanese friends in California and Hawaii, studied Japanese history, culture and language, which really was interesting for me. Have always loved Japanese food. Well, making a long story shorter - one day pulled up my stakes and moved to Japan!! Everyone thought I was crazy - even my Japanese friends. My family thought I would give up and be back within months.
And I have to say - when my father dropped me off at the airport - and he cried (the way a father cries without really shedding any tears) , and I gave him a tape I had recorded previously thanking him and my mom for everything - and with a son's personal message to him - that only he and I know and can understand - my heart was in a sense broken. But he understood why and supported what I was doing. My cocoon - mayu, had begun. When I was on the plane - towards my new home, lots of time to think. My heart was constantly racing - with the anticipation of my new life. I was scared and excited at the same time. There was no turning back - nor did I want to. Sometimes you know where your destiny is taking you, and you have no choice but to follow. This is one of the few times, I knew for sure (this is another long story itself), and it was right. Away for the first time in my life, from all I knew, my country, my language, my family, my friends - all my security and familiar surroundings - thousands of miles away.

My "cocoon" - mayu, lasted a few months after first arriving. It was somewhat of a painful transformation, and at moments doubted my decision coming to this country. But here I am, more than a few years later - and my life has grown and I have become so much more, by being here in this wonderful country with such special people. My Japan "butterfly" I think is beautiful, and I am grateful.

Hmm, what is next? Is it time to cocoon again? Something inside of me is trying to get out. Trying to figure it out, for sure.

Destiny is calling, shall I answer? We shall see.
I will start listening to myself, and see where is the journey taking me to the next stage of my life.


azn_jpn82 35F

6/5/2005 4:21 pm

MY mayu is about to start I think.And my chou chou is hopefully a good one.I want to listen to myself but I think I was wrong.I listened to you japantiger and I think you are right.So sometimes you need to listen to someone too.

I will leave now.Goodluck and write many here.Sad I cant read them anymore.Promise is A promise.


AmberSolaire 42M

6/7/2005 10:33 am

I think its partially to do with independance and a mans need to constantly challenge himself.This drive is part of who we are.To bury it would be to let a part of you die.

Keep moving , keep cocooning.You will know when the time is right to stop and settle.

_HugsNkisses_ 41M

6/9/2005 1:59 am

I had a different cocooning and a very good fking Butterfly now,and man,sheesh,goodluck and keep blogging.

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