Touching the Void  

janmecir 53M
133 posts
10/23/2005 4:24 pm

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Touching the Void


Hi there everyone

So: the fading away of one of those long slow turning stretchy Sundays.....

Initially I was good. I made a to-do list this morning…..
And then didn’t do it… not any of it….not the cleaning or the tidying…..not the organizing or the managing of myself….not the sensible useful habits of everyday me…..nothing at all….

Nothing got ticked off…..

I didn’t talk to anybody all day. Which is terrible! A Gemini who isn’t flitting and fluttering about….to chat the fat out of everybody around….is not really producing the delight of his butterfly being……

Instead I got into a lethargic funk….with melancholy bits in it….feeling the sad piquancy of my life lived with… as a life lived without…..

……………….

And now, this evening, we’ve had the Natural History programmes on BBC2……the lions were eating zebra’s (again)…..and then to calm us down a bit…it’s the reticulations of the centipede (or some such, I don’t like progs about insects)… before it’s back, once more, to hyena’s ripping the fuck out of gazelle’s hearts….

The male cheetahs were humping (again) (as usual)
(It was lions actually - but you get my drift....)

………………..

Solitary firecrackers bang off on the hill of the burnt out church (Satanists did it)

Solitary squibs of nothing…intended for no reason…..cus the local hyena’s have nothing to do…..no gazelle’s or zebra’s ….anywhere….

Fuck……I could have done something to produce myself today, create myself out…..inspire myself to be self-creating….

But, the thing is, I needed you. I needed you to be inspiring with, to create myself in you. With you it could have been possible to produce something hot, or warm and wet, or tender (I wouldn’t have ripped your heart out ‒ I promise)

Because, I miss you. Not being here with me. Whoever you are. I miss you.

…………….

Dull evening has now turned dark and wet into a (very) rainy Dartmoor night.

How will I remember today?
I watched a memorable film. It touched me and moved me…..

At the end I shed some small tears….

….“Touching the Void”……it was called…..

smartmama 58F

10/24/2005 7:34 am

I loved that movie. I saw it in the theatre, at a film festival. Great movie.


janmecir 53M
158 posts
10/24/2005 1:20 pm

Hi A
You're going to send me a private email?.....I'm intrigued.......a spicey little secret......yeaaaahhh!
Jan


janmecir 53M
158 posts
10/24/2005 1:26 pm

Hi (Scary) Smart (!)
It's more of a bloke film...which half way through turns into a girl film... that by the end has become a film for the bloke in every girl, and the girl in every bloke.....
Jan
I'll hop over to see whats up on your blog now...


warmandsexy52 64M
13164 posts
10/25/2005 11:42 am

Nice post. I've enjoyed.

~warm


janmecir 53M
158 posts
10/26/2005 4:21 am

Hi warm
i guess you were out last Sunday flying the sky....!!
If you didn't see Touching the Void yet, do....it might especially appeal to you i'm thinking....
Jan


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