Explaination for my "time out"  

jaimeOOO69 52F
278 posts
1/14/2006 3:22 pm

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Explaination for my "time out"

I have been under a lot of stress, mostly financial. I am a breast cancer survivor, and I still paying for the treatment I received back in 2003.
During the treatment one of the lymph nodes on my remaining breast enlarged. It was biopsied in August 2003 and was found to be benign.
This lymph node now has changed shape and composition a little. On the 12th I had a mammogram and an ultrasound, on Friday the 13th the lymph node was biopsied(8 tissue samples were taken). I will not get results till Tuesday.

I do not want to be deeper in financial stress, so I hope it isn't malignant. Also if remaining breast has to be removed, I will survive physically, but emotionally I will not be the same. I have always had low self-esteem, but if I were to have no breasts?

Even my sexual partner doesn't know how he will respond if I were to lose the remaining breast.

Sometimes I just think if it is for certain cancer, I should just let it run its course.

rm_badwall75 57M
1 post
1/16/2006 4:43 pm

Don't give in. I know I can not relate to your problems, but I too have faced the health issue. Not with cancer but with other problems. Heres to more good days than bad

jaimeOOO69 52F

1/20/2006 4:07 pm

Woohoo, I don't have cancer!

But I am still stuggling with the depression, I tend to be anti-social.

fuckybucky2005 64M

1/23/2006 9:24 am

hang in there. the important parts are still there!

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