hope.....  

j20652 44F
13 posts
4/27/2006 7:48 pm

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5/3/2006 8:17 am

hope.....


it's late getting this done now. why does this always of happen to me,i get my hopes up about something and i get let down. is it possible to be surrounded by all the people you love and still feel alone..that's how i feel right now. i went to a b-day party for my dad this week and sat there listened to everybody talk...but they weren't talking to me. a room full of people and no one talking to me!!!!!!is it any wonder i'm so screwed up. is it any wonder i love the company of men, and love sex. at least then i feel good. if you all haven't noticed.i'm sad tonite. there are some times i have no idea what the hell is wrong with me,i'll probably never know. i hate feeling this way i'm so hard on myself. well,tomorrow is another day right?? maybe i won't feel so sad. make time for fun,live life,have sex!!!!! that's all for now cheers....jen.

LoyaltyandHonor 35M/31F
1241 posts
4/27/2006 8:47 pm

Sounds like how my entire life has been so far. It took me 22 years to finally find out why I was so miserable and that was because I was living a false life.

None of my so-called friends and my family would allow me to be me and they most certainly wouldn’t allow me to study the subjects that I wanted to study.

Women totally ignoring me didn’t help either. After finally loosing my virginity at the age of 24 and now living with the girl I met from this site; she is the only one who supports my dreams, theories and anything else that I desire or feel in general.

From the sounds of it, sex may be something you enjoy but you would enjoy it a lot more if you found a person that did not treat you like a ghost. Do they treat you the same in bed as they do outside of it? How is it that everyone ignores you emotionally and intellectually and yet you can still easily find people to have sex with?


rm_BubbaS1981 56

4/30/2006 8:44 pm

sorry you are so down. can't say you are srewed up, though. sounds like you are demanding of yourself, but that doesn't mean you are screwed up. maybe you worry a bit much about what others think about you?


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