***before it's too late***  

ink_slinger_4_u 48M
19 posts
5/18/2006 11:45 pm

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***before it's too late***

Isnt it ironic how it takes something as terrible as death to actually bring family members together. To make people realize just what they have. "before it's too late"

People get so caught up in there daily events, advanceing towords the future, that all the things given to us, like "children", "wakeing up each day" or "being american" are all taken for granted, forgotten, overlooked.
Im sad to say "Im one of those people" and even more saddened to admit.. it took my son corey's death before i realized just how special of a gift he was, And how badly i got off tract of having known that. By getting caught up in life.
I realize this all again (after the fact). After i cannot hold my son in my arms anymore and tell him how much i love him, or how or how thankful i was that he became part of my life.
After... i realize ,i'll never hear his voice speak to me again.
So i ask you people that have read this, 2 do me a favor & take the time to tell loved 1's just how much u love them and care about them Because carrying this burdon on my shoulders is unbareable, and shameful too. As i'll spend a lifetime prooving it to corey. since i didnt take the time while he was alive.
I LOVE & MISS YOU SON 5-9-2006 R*I*P*

AngelEyez4u2004 56F
1473 posts
5/19/2006 8:39 am

Ink first of all, I am very sorry for your loss, I too lost a song almost 14 yrs ago come june 15th, unfortunately I did not get to spend any time with him since he died at birth, but that bond was there and there is not one day that goes by that he's not missed, or that i wonder what life would have been like if he had survived. I do have 3 great kids with me, to remind me of just how precious kids are. You are absolutely right in saying that we sometimes forget to stop and smell the roses along the way, I am guilty of it, think we all are, unfortunately for some, thats how life is. I've had several family deaths this past year, and with each and every one of them, the hurt and pain of my son's death, is brought back to haunt me......ty for sharing your thoughts with us.....

JonnyBGoode44 56M
92 posts
5/23/2006 12:58 pm

Ink, my condolences. Can't imagine what it's like to lose a son. And a lot of wierd staph infections running amok lately... it's scary. I know he loved you though, you sound like you were - and are - a fine father. I know I miss my own father, who died too soon as well. Take care.

broken731 35F
1394 posts
5/24/2006 4:33 am

ink i am so sorry for your loss. i honestly can not imagine what you are going thru right now. i have a little 4 yr old boy and he is my life, my world. i can not imagine being here with out him. my thoughts and prayers are with you.

4biddenlove4us 49F

5/24/2006 4:51 am

God blesses us each with so many things
And sometimes that blessing is a child.
He chooses a special angel, picked just for you
And loans them to you for awhile.

From the time they arrive
They hold your heart in their hands
And add countless precious moments to your life
And each night we bow down and ask the good Lord above
To protect them and keep them from strife.

For this oh so precious gift,
God doesn't ask a large fee.
“Just love and care for them,
and teach them of Me”.
So we do what we can,
We work hard and we pray
And watch them blossom and grow
With each passing day.

Not one of us knows how long they'll be here
Or when God will call for his loan,
And take that special angel, picked just for you
Back to his glorious home.

But he made us a promise and I have no doubt,
He will carry you through this great sorrow.
Because when it's your time, he'll be first to greet you
And you'll be blessed with an eternity of tomorrows.
I am truly sorry for your sorry, l wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy, l too lost a son but that was 12 yrs ago and l still live with the memory and this l wrote in memory of which l now share with you. lots of love.

sazzynsexy 43F

6/11/2006 1:37 pm

Ink...i am so sorry for your loss. I look at my kids everyday and could not ever picture them around. I thank god every min of everyday that they r in my life. I am so sorry that u could not enjoy more time with your son. My payers go out to u ink and hope u always remember the good times u had with him.

ink_slinger_4_u 48M
6 posts
6/12/2006 9:07 am

sazzynsexy thats all i do anymore. Is think of past times, or things that we use to do.
Seams like thats all i do really. I have so many differnt emotions thats forced into my daily thoughts that itsm un believeable.
Im thinking about trying to start a new law... 1 where local health departments have to inform the public of such diseases.
I maybe in over my head in trying to do something like this.. but like i said im on a mission, i owe it to my son.

rm_cuppll4fun 47M/47F
2 posts
10/7/2007 7:15 am

Ink, It's been awhile since you posted anything. I was wondering how you were doing? Your blog really touched my heart. I hope as time has gone by you have found peace within yourself. I believe that your son DOES know how much you love him. I feel that your son now wants to help you through your loss. to heal your poor heart, for you to just relax and feel him. I think if you can do this, it might help....a little.

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