passion, love, i think its all gone  

inderfrentlife 43M
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9/1/2005 12:51 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

passion, love, i think its all gone

well i've had a good life and have been many places and have with out a doubt been with my share of women and a few men it,s all been fun. i've been maried twice, i have great kids and memories that will never fade it's time to focus on life and find a direction. i am without adoubt a great guy an amazing father and am ready to find that one friend to let into my life, it's ashme though i only realize this after my best friend moves out west..( i miss you jennifer) funny how you can share a feeling so strong with some one and never have had sex... you see she was married and that still means something to me(if she'll cheat on him will she cheat on me?) we were close to each other so close it took all i had not ask het to leave her husband...with out her i felt confused and empty, when she was around i felt i could fly and that the whole world was gone except her and me.her husband was in iraq and she was left to deal with things ( and she did so very well she is a strong girl) we worked together as police officers in northern new york and grew very close. i with out a doubt was in love with her and she admitted to feeling a strong love for me,when her husband came back from the war the army sent him out west instead of bringing him back to his family, so she was faced with a decision- move or stay she has a son on the west coast (california) and the move would put her closer to him so urged her to move out west and be with her family..(i miss her so much i'am tearing as i write this)my love for is unconditional and i respect her situation but wish for her by my side. i saw her on her way out of town she told me she didn't want to go.. i still feel that she was waiting for me to ask her to stay..i soo wanted to but thats not the right thing to do she is married and had a dutie to the vows she had taken..after we cried together i watched her tail lights drive away...i don't cry but standing there next to my police car on the side of a road i cried like a baby and realized i do love this girl more then any woman i ever shared a bed with.the sweet taste of her kisses will alwys be the best i ever had the love i felt for her was pure and from my heart...it was real an i will always have a place in my life for her if she wants to come back.


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