The Lowest Point in My Life  

imLadyBambi 58M/50F
1308 posts
6/19/2006 10:15 am

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6/26/2006 1:29 pm

The Lowest Point in My Life

In anticipation of our 100th blog, we are going to depart from the norm. Blog 98 (today's blog) will discuss the lowest point in my (Mr. Bambi's) life. Blog 99 will discuss the lowest point in Lady Bambi'simLadyBambi life. And our 100th blog will be dedicated to answering any and all personal questions that you might have about us. Obviously, if you have questions or comments (any question), you will need to post them on blogs 98 and 99.

The Lowest Point in My (Mr. Bambi's) Life occurred in 1986. I was 26 years old and I was having an affair with my secretary. I was single, she was married to a man she described as a bigot, I'm black, she was white. She also had a 3 year old son.

The first time we got together romantically, I asked her if she was on the pill. She said, "Yes".For the next several months, we would meet as often as we could. The only thing remarkable about our lovemaking was the fact that she was always trying to give me blow jobs - she seemed to have an aversion to intercourse.

A couple months later, I found out why she avoided intercourse. She wasn't on the pill. What's worse, she had gotten pregnant. When I asked her about being on the pill, she said she was too embarrassed to say that we needed to use condoms or some other type of method. But quite frankly, that wasn't the major issue on my mind. The big issue was her pregnancy.

Her dilemma was that she could not take the chance of having a "black" baby. If she did, her husband would divorce her and most certainly seek custody of her 3 year old son. It was for that reason that she had an abortion. I was strongly opposed to the abortion but I realized that it was her decision. In the end, I found myself supporting her in something that I thought was wrong (speaking about my personal life and not about the larger political issue).

Since then, I have not had the opportunity to become a father. Although I later married another lady, shortly after we married she passed unexpectedly. For me Father's Day has always been and always will be a particularly difficult day because I am reminded to my errant ways, the abortion, the death of my wife, and the joys of fatherhood that I will never experience.

Mr. Bambi (Chuck)

lightswitch1963 68M/53F

6/19/2006 11:21 am

WOW!! So sorry. It seems the good ones don't get to be fathers. I had a girl, and always wanted a boy....Dr. mistake took that away. I couldn't imagine never having been a parent. My heart goes out to you. With the conversation we had with you, that we enjoyed so much, I'm not sure there is anything left. Well, nothing we would consider any of our business. You could tell the story of how you's great.

We'll leave the light on for you.;

rm_KirkVW44m 54M
688 posts
6/19/2006 1:05 pm

Just to let you know i've been with the same woman for nearly 19 years and we are without children.. We never pressed the issue and are both happy and content without at this point in our lives. I'm 44 and she is soon to be 41. I would like to say this.. Just because your not a parent doesn't mean you can't be a great role model and highly respected by children. Sometimes i believe its all how you put things in perspective sir. You dont have to be a parent to make a great difference in a childs life as i know i've impacted many kids positively.

You know in life its not what you don't have that matters but what you do have Mr. B.

Whispersoftly5 52F
15176 posts
6/19/2006 1:57 pm

That is a very powerful and personal post. Thank you for sharing so much of yourself. From what you've said and how important having a child sounds for you, it's understandable why father's day is difficult. I'm sorry for that sweetie.

My question - aside from sex, what is your favorite thing to do?


goodatpoetry2 66M
12391 posts
6/19/2006 2:11 pm

I'm very sorry for your sadness. I suppose, it had to be done. Life sometimes gives us tough choices to make. It's hard to tell whether we've done the right thing. We can not forget, but we must accept and move on.

angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
6/19/2006 4:19 pm

I'm so sorry Chuck. It seems a hard thing to live with. I don't believe in abortion myself....although I know many who have had one. It is sad though to me that you would have been a great father to this child......but you are an inspiration to many.

rm1973 43M

6/19/2006 6:36 pm

Tough story and sorry to hear. Thanks for sharing and thanks for stopping by to visit...

Luvwetcunt1000 48M
1258 posts
6/20/2006 12:17 am

Thanks for sharing, AK. I understand exactly how you feel.

When my wife and I first started dating, she got pregnant. We felt we were too young and not ready to be parents. Her parents would have killed her if they knew. It was a tough choice - we opted for abortion.

Now that we're married and have 2 children, we often think back to that day when we destroyed our first child's life. I really don't know how to express the guilt we feel. I know that when the time comes I'm gonna pay for this biggest sin that I committed.

My question (you don't have to answer if you don't feel like): Knowing now all the things you know, and having gone through all the experiences you have, if given a chance to go back in time to that moment, what would you choose to do?

shamgirl2004 35F

6/20/2006 12:36 am

I am here, responding to you responding to me. And you are right. I do get overloaded with alot of mail and all. And so far I have only had one bad time from AdultFriendFinder. I do hope that in time, my time here is great. I have met several people that I like and have talked to other than just sex. I think meeting friends on here is great, and when someone is after me for more than just my body, I feel even better. Thank you again for looking me up and writting, it means alot.

(What the fuck is this shit..?? *rolls eyes*)

6/20/2006 4:17 am

Father-hood doesn't come in Fathering a child but IN raising one. I know My Dad raised four of us, all adopted from other families. He was not only a Good Dad he was a Great Man who never sought the spot light in life, just the joy of raising a family. You never know You may still have your chance in becoming a Dad....Ready


free2chose2 66F

6/20/2006 10:05 am

Father-hood doesn't come in Fathering a child but IN raising one. I know My Dad raised four of us, all adopted from other families. He was not only a Good Dad he was a Great Man who never sought the spot light in life, just the joy of raising a family. You never know You may still have your chance in becoming a Dad....Ready-(as readytolay -3) stated

Remember "It takes a village"-become a part directly or indirectly in youth, it will help to nuture and guide them and fulfill your need for parenting also

Don't worry, be Happy

sexyariesgirl 57F

6/21/2006 8:33 am

HUGGS Mr Bambi....

Power To FOK

LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
6/21/2006 10:00 pm

I am sorry you had to go through that stuff.....thank you for sharing it.


6/22/2006 11:35 am

Wow I am so sorry for so many of the different emotions that had to bring. (((Hugs))) to you Chuck! Thanks for sharing part of you! Kisses, MO

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

VCF1962 105F

6/26/2006 12:09 pm

Sorry to hear your story Mr Bambi - I guess in the end it was for the best for both of you, but that still doesn't make it any easier.

And on the flip side, had you been white or her husband been black, what then ? Would she have left him for you or would she have tried to bring the child up as theirs and not yours ?

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