Am I A Closet Lesbian?  

imLadyBambi 58M/50F
1308 posts
4/4/2006 3:18 pm

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Am I A Closet Lesbian?

Welcome to our bedroom…

I’ve never engaged in a lesbian act, I’ve never been attracted to women, and I’ve never fantasized about women until yesterday. Now I find myself replaying the events of my gynecological exam in my mind and fantasizing about my doctor.

Anyone who knows me would say that I am more of the dominant type. Yet I find myself fantasizing about burying my face in my doctors’ crotch, licking her pussy, and completely submitting to her every whim. I want to crawl across her body, lick every inch of it, caress her breasts, and grind my pussy against hers.

All the while, the smell of her perfume and the touch of her skin seem to be so real. I recall in vivid detail looking into her eyes, being mesmerized, and then smiling softly at her. I’m embarrassed at the thought that she probably knows that I have a crush on her yet I desperately want her to sense my yearnings, have mutual feelings, and break the code of professional ethics by making love to me ‒ even if it is for just one night.

What bothers me about this whole thing is the fact that Mr. Bambi does not figure into these fantasies. Even worse, they are so strong, I’m not sure I could resist the urge to act upon them if I were given the chance (I’ve never thought about cheating on Mr. Bambi before). Fellow bloggers, I need your help on this one…

Am I a closet lesbian?
Is this something normal for women to go through?
In your experience, what happens next?

Lady Bambi

4Luven2 41M
42 posts
4/5/2006 2:36 am

Ya know got me....I am a closet Lesbian......matter of fact I'm coming out the closet now "I LIKE TO SLEEP WITH WOMEN".....there its out...........that feels good............wait......was that question for women?
I Kid

4Luven2 41M
42 posts
4/5/2006 2:52 am

Luvs Serious Time:
By the way, most women do go through those feelings, in my experiences. They just don't want to admit it because they are afraid that it does make them full fledge Lesbians. But the fact of the matter is that women and men both find women attractive. Reason being is that the womans body is a beautiful thing it comes in all colors, shapes and sizes and has one thing in common they are all soft. By soft I mean possesing that characteristic that makes a baby want to nustle against there mothers bosom and not their fathers hairy chest. Just a fact women are softer and more curvacious then men. Its like when appreciating sculptures, usually a mans body is appreciated for the beauty of its intricism and hardness and sculpted design. But a womans body is can only be summed up as being appreciated for its beauty. Every human is attracted to something they find beautiful and its undeniabel that the woman's body is a priceless commodity that will stand the test of time. So, in my opinion, that is why men are attracted to women as well as most women. And some women just are brave enough not to deny that curiosity to explore the craving to touch that beauty which excites them as much as the man who they love (which by the way they find that beautiful as well)...................ofcourse some gay guys might disagree with me, right?

bedroomice2003 43M

4/5/2006 2:57 am

I don't think you're being unfaithful to Mr. Bambi for having fantasies. It's something everyone does. It may also be that as your gyno, she holds a position of authority over you (especially when you're sitting vulnerable in the stirrups). It might be you have a few submissive tendencies to explore. I don't think Mr. Bambi would mind much if you describe those fantasies with him in graphic detail. It could lead to something yummy.

And yes, if your doctor has any professional ethics, she wouldn't cross that line even if she were a lesbian herself. But it's still nice to have fantasies.

rm_art_persists 51M
1789 posts
4/9/2006 10:06 am

ladybambi: I am a little disturbed to find your comments upon my experiences as a 6 year old. I was six and discovering sexuality. To infer that I choose to fantasize about little girls is disturbing to say the least. This story is a true story about my budding sexuality and nothing more.

lmtytwmt 53F
1 post
4/11/2006 4:35 am

Here is my personal opinion! You can have dreams and desires all you want about your doc, Bambi but if she has ANY work ethic at all it's never going to happen between you two. If it does, she can hang up her career! Is it natural? I wouldn't have said so 15 years ago but 10 years ago when I had my first encounter with my best it just happened! We played basketball together with our kids and I was clueless! All my friends in high school were gay or lebian, I was the straight one. I got married, had 4 kids and met her. One day we were just sitting in my living room and she said J, at the risk of losing our friendship there is something I gotta tell ya. She just wanted to know what it felt like to really be kissed. I leaned over and kissed her,then I kissed her all the way down my hallway and into my bed! For the next 5 years it was the bomb girl. After her there were 4 other women in my life and I loved every minute of it. Aint no man can do for a woman what a woman can do to you! Why is that? Cause we know what we like, we know where it feels good! I can take a woman with my tongue to places no man could ever take her! Very sweet indeed, but I will tell you this also that once my husband and kids figured it all out, I walked away from it because none of that was worth losing them! So ask yourself this, how opened minded is your husband and as much as men talk about how awesome it would be to watch two women get it on, it makes them very jealous, because the woman always does things for you that he can't! I've seen that happen in 3 of my personal relationships. One of which, the husband nearly shot my girl (his wife). So maybe it isn't worth it honey! If you love your man, enjoy being with him and cherish it. And look at it this way, if you don't go there you will never know what you are missing. If you do, you spend the rest of your life running and hiding from the truth. Eventually it catches up to you. It nearly cost me everything I hold closest to me. The decision is yours my friend. J

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