Anesthetic  

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3/12/2006 5:16 pm

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3/12/2006 6:57 pm

Anesthetic


I went to the dentist this morning and I can still feel the anesthetic though its wearing off.

Sometimes I feel like I'm in this pit that's slowly filling with mushy quagmire. I've got a shovel and I'm trying to scoop it all out before I drown but the shovel doesn't hold anything. This slush pit seems to just get deeper.

I'm confused by alot of the issues in my life and can't determine how cause and effect are situated relative to the pressures of life. Serious psychiatric issues?? Perhaps.

What is confidence?? Is it the belief that you can do something? Or is it how you feel about yourself? It might have something to do with knowing that your good enough.

I've heard thoughout my life many times that if I don't beleive in myself noone else will. That doesn't seem to change the way I feel about myself.

I read some of the blogs around here and some of them are so well articulated. My written expression seems plain in comparison. Is it any brighter because I believe it to be brighter?

Some people are so colourful and understand and convey things that have no meaning to me. Topics like relationships, sex, work and the kids are explored everywhere and, for me, they are somewhat esoteric. More reasons to question what's wrong with me. I'm very far outside the norm.

To make things better is, firstly, to know what better is, and I don't even know that much. What is confidence?

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