negative closed minded attitude  

iceman0071962 46M
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8/11/2005 3:38 am

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negative closed minded attitude

I had a girlfriend who was from Trinidad once. Educated and successful accountant controller, She was very pessimistic, narrow minded, sometimes rude, and stubborn as I find out recently! About me trying to reconcile with her after the break up. Maybe personal problems as a child? Can not elaborate on that now, abuse? Is that common, I mean is it cultural, not abuse but negative closed minded attitude? I've seen that before with women from South America? See Picture She is the tanned pretty one on the right.

I saw her profile on another site. Female seeking Female. I don't have a problem with that at all. I suspected she would turn to women (Can
not elaborate on that either now ) for comfort/love, fine if she's happy.

Here is my analysis. I work in the accounting field a controller as well and I see this type of personality all the time at all the accounting levels especially in positions of power like a controller. I bet she is difficult because as she stated in her profile she have very high standards very few people will meet, and she will not compromise. I'll bet she would quietly (as her nature) get upset or just give up if those criteria are not met. That she's got to be disappointed early in a relationship with a regular man. Even the most different alpha type male. But gay men are OK for her as friends. They are more emotional and feeling oriented, that's fine no problem.

I think from knowing her that she is probably are very likely extremely narrow-minded. That brings forth her high standards that are almost inhumanly unattainable (experience that myself with a real blockheaded boss ). I bet she is a difficult boss (she told me so) and have many failed relationships with men as well. Nobody is going to respond to a profile that mentions an "my idea of an ideal relationship is one that lasts more than a year", my heart goes out to her. She says that all her doors are open? Are they honestly? And she has is the sweetest big hearted person. Yes, but not to the world outside of her, YES!! Thats it narrow and ego.

Don't run away my child...

She was extremely irrational with me in trying to reconcile. Yes "hell hath no furry like a woman scorned" so she thinks so. I did not return her phone call after four days as a April fools joke that I was in Jail, dumb me, but explained that as part of the reconciling process, no dice. Read my first Blog here for reference. I'm not like other men. I have changed a great deal and learned since we were together a year ago. But she will not give any chance. I have given up since I poured my heart out to her and she squashed it. Hearts can not be broken ther are small squishy things .... lol !! I just wonder has anyone been successful with this type of personality?


iceman0071962 46M

8/11/2005 4:04 am

The Pass

proud swagger out of the school yard
waiting for the world's applause
rebel without a conscience
martyr without a cause

static on your frequency
electrical storm in your veins
raging at unreachable glory
straining at invisible chains

and now you're trembling on a rocky ledge
staring down into a heartless sea
can't face life on a razor's edge
nothing's what you thought it would be

All of us get lost in the darkness
Dreamers learn to steer by the stars
All of us do time in the gutter
Dreamers turn to look at the cars
turn around and turn around and turn around
Turn around and walk the razor's edge
Don't turn your back
And slam the door on me

it's not as if this barricade
blocks the only road
it's not as if you're all alone
in wanting to explode

someone set a bad example
made surrender seem all right
the act of a noble warrior
who lost the will to fight

and now you're trembling on a rocky ledge
staring down into a heartless sea
done with life on a razor's edge
nothing's what you thought it would be

no hero in your tragedy
no daring in your escape
no salutes for your surrender
nothing noble in your fate
Christ, what have you done?

Turn around and walk the razor's edge
Don't turn your back
And slam the door on me

-neil peart


iceman0071962 46M

8/11/2005 10:06 am

Heart over mind

Lead by the mind
And not the heart
Clouded in confusion
It tears from the start

Sweep away
In a river
Of my own perceptions
Never knowing
Where to swim
Or where to start

Lead by the thrill
Where the end becomes the beginning
Sailing in an endless sea
A steady course off chart

Ran away
On a path of solitude
Of my own devotions
Never realizing
How far away I roamed
Away from the heart

Unbalanced and unprotected
In a reckless climb
Falling into hurt
Of her heart so kind


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