iamthecmfe 38F
1638 posts
12/17/2005 7:06 am

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3/8/2006 7:36 pm


dont you love me
dont you want me
dont you need me
dont you hold me
dont you kiss me
dont you get excited when I walk into a room
dont you smile when our eyes meet
dont you catch secret glimpses
and want private touches

cant I forget you
cant I just walk away
cant I be happy with the lie
cant I accept it
cant I smile with pretend thoughts
cant I just hold my pillow instead
cant I lie to myself
and say everything will be all right

aren't I enough for you
what is it
whom do I need to be
to make you
love me

which is worse?

knowing you cant have the love of your life?

or having him

and him not even be there?

and not even care......

cuminsider850 40M

12/19/2005 9:37 am

Sad, But we would not be seeing this pain if you were talking about me. I would not let you feel like that.

cuminsider850 40M

12/19/2005 9:39 am

Sad, But you would not have those feelings with me - I could not let taht happen to you

RockPebble 69M
2484 posts
12/19/2005 7:12 pm

Sounds like you're trying to play tennis and the guy won't even pick up the racquet, a little difficult. To put it another way it's like trying to push something with a rope, it doesn't work to well. If you're arround during the day maybe we could chat about it, a little give and take may help you gain a better perspective.

iamthecmfe 38F

12/20/2005 2:23 pm

Husky - thank you.....

Rock - I am always around. He plays tennis...just not enough....I'm a greedy lil brat...

RockPebble 69M
2484 posts
12/27/2005 6:34 am

There's nothing wrong with greedy as long as you're honest with yourself. Wanting and expecting are 2 different things. Some of your comments sounded self destructive I hope that was just venting. Venting is good, if you need someone to talk to we could meet for coffee, I'm a half decent listener. I just realized we're only a couple miles apart. Hope Christmas was merry and happy new year.

shadowlova33 35M

1/14/2006 10:10 am

If you think he's having doubts, then you should bring them to light, but how much longer are you going to stay in the dark?

rm_kcal120 40M
30 posts
1/17/2006 1:09 am

so does he travel? too close to his friends? or just distant?

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