"is she bi too?"  

i_fuck_dirty 33F
137 posts
1/6/2006 6:46 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

"is she bi too?"


so as i said i had friends over recently. my all time life long best friend stayed with me for a while, while she was visiting the region. we shared my bed since i was (am) still moving into my new house. she is a drop dead gorgeous girl. blond haired, blue eyed. tall. tight body. naturally perky breasts. beautiful face. everyone i know would do her. i would totally do her, too. and every night i got into bed with her wondering "is she bi too?"

see, not many people in my life actually KNOW that i am curious (or bi-curious, or bi or whatever you want to call it) while i may be sexually open with all of you, i dont necessarily broadcast myself to my friends and what not. not for fear of persecution (because i know they would support me all the way) its just that i like to keep who and how i fuck on some level of anonimity. does that make sense? it does to me. i dont like to shit where i eat. how bout that..... anyway, back to the point.

hitting on a guy is not that hard, because 1) i tend to only try when i know i will be successful (and usually am) and 2) even when rejected, who the fuck cares, there will be more. and i have done the dirty with several of my guy friends and it did not materially alter the essense of our frinedship. but there is something about hitting on a woman that is so damn hard, especially about a woman you already know. guy friends are just guys i haven't fucked yet, but girls, are simply just friends. so when you throw in the sex factor, its like "if i even attempt to do this, regardless if i am successful, how will our friendship change?" and if it does not materially change our friendship, but i am still rejected, would it forever repress my desire to be with another woman?

one night as we were getting ready to go out she changed in front of me. which under normal circumstances would mean nothing to a person, but to me, seeing her naked ... i was just taken aback by her. i would have dies had we done it right then and there. but we didnt. i thought to myself "well, if we get shit faced enough, i might say something, and if she doesnt take i can chalk it up to the booze in the morning." but we didn't get shit faced enough, not at all actually. and so, i could not munster up the corage to tell this girl how beautiful i think she is and how i would love to be with her. i dont know what scared me more, how the act of just asking might change our friendship or the possible rejection. well, obviously the fear of our relationship changin won, because i would rather have her as a friend than as a lover. but whatever.

in the end, the point is that i know see why so many guys have issued with taking the first step in getting with a girl. and to those who bravely face the world and try to get into girls' pants anyway, touche` to you, for you are far braver than i am.

rm_fun4you2002 55M
2 posts
1/6/2006 9:39 am

Very insightful post. We have e-mailed a while ago. I am a local attorney and my girlfriend is bi. We live very close by. I am guessing you attend the same Law School that I did. We would love to get together sometime. Always available for legal writing help.

DJM


SirMounts 102M

1/13/2006 4:02 am

Aw, you don't have to be brave, just... nice. *smiling*


youngcouple4bi 37M/35F
1 post
1/25/2006 9:41 pm

Femme of the 2 halves speaking. I can totally relate to you. It happened to me all the time. Then I'd find out that the girls wanted me too, it's just that they were too shy to say anything. So I've blown plenty of opportunities, but I'm still shy. I am femme and don't advertise my bisexuality everywhere, and have a hard time looking for femmes too.

Look at that, you popped my cherry. This is my first post.


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