(Neil M)
56 posts
3/30/2005 12:49 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm


Well, I don't really know what's going on. If it's just kid burn out or what. I just haven't been in the mood for much lately. I know it's not from being over sexed, I haven't done much of that at all here of late, though angel and I did have a nice lil morning romp. I"m just feeling cagged I think. I've been wanting to go and have my nice little convos at night with my neighbor gal, but of course I can't. Every time I've tried to go and do that, I have company. I'm too use to, and enjoy too much, my singleness. I've had to forego my usual chats with people here of late coz my week long company is usually somewhere close, if not right there watching every little thing. Like today.. I went to go and do a couple of the questionaires for to help finish up my little profile there, and as soon as I get started doing the questions, she's right there asking the specifics about it. Not that I care who sees what, I just find it really annoying to have someone looking over my shoulder questioning every little thing.

I feel the relationship blues comming on, and it's beginning to piss me off. I've been out of one now for almost 3 months, and like it the way it is for me now. I've got my friends, my kids, and my business to attend to, and in NO WAY SHAPE OR FORM am interested in getting into another relationship at this point in time. I thought I've made that perfectly clear, but I'm beginning to wonder... a little too much 'lovie-dovie' been going on for my comfort zone.

I'm just really starting to miss my freedom I've worked hard at regaining here of late. I can feel the walls starting to close in. Ughhh... Oh well.. something's bound to happen soon.

Add to this the flustration of a couple that we've been trying to get together with that now seems to be doing the avoiding thing. They first got ahold of angel, saying they really wanted to play with us as a team/couple.. but I get the impression they're really only interested in angel. She's had me call, write, and IM these people the past week, and I get nothing in response. hmmmmm... sounds fishy to me. Go figure.

instant update!!! just before finishing this, I got an IM from the couple.. lol.. looks like we may have some plans after all !!!

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