Its almost just another day now  

hotandhorny107 58F
339 posts
6/5/2006 11:09 pm

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6/15/2006 10:46 am

Its almost just another day now

Today is my 8th wedding anniversary. I say is only because I don't really know if I am divorced. He filed the paperwork shortly after leaving me and that was the last I ever heard of it. Of course,the gutless bastard did not even tell me, I read about it in the newspaper (my local paper publishes these things) before getting the official paperwork from the court.

Funny but it does not really bother me anymore. This used to be a very painful day, but I have passed through the worst of it and now it has almost become just another day. It is somewhat sad, since I was so happy to have married someone that I loved dearly and held so very close to my heart and soul. Only a few here know the whole story but perhaps some day I will tell it to all of you. A friend told me that this would happen but at the time I did not really believe him, since the pain was so fresh and raw. But he was right. I chose to hang on, work through the pain and hurt and here I am living the life I choose to live, the way I choose to live it.

As far as the ex goes, I don't really know where he is and no longer knows where I am since I did move out of the apartment we shared during our marriage. I chose not to tell my former mother in law, even though we talk a few times a year my new address, in order to keep her out of the middle of the mess he made. That is not to say that I am not partly responsible but to this day I do not know what really caused him to leave me.
All he said was that he "could not love me the way I needed to be loved" as he left me crying in the doorway........

WowieZowie1 56M

6/6/2006 3:40 am

*hugs* You know I'm here for ya hon...

Twister2bed 47M
617 posts
6/6/2006 9:34 pm

I really hate when that happens people leave without even an explanation.. That sucks

PubicTunedDying 51M
2 posts
6/9/2006 11:19 pm

Hi hot, first time here, and just my 2 cents, but an incredible lady(and extremely sexy looking) like you, is better off without him!

a4cpa 62M
33 posts
6/10/2006 7:05 am

You need to sit with a group of friends more often. Your story is sad but you, and everyone, needs a support group to make you realize that you're ok. Look at how you spend your time. Are you alone too much? especially now. Try to set yourself up with others when important dates in your life would tend to drag you down. Just a suggestion.Ron

hotandhorny107 58F

6/10/2006 11:37 am

Thanks to all that commented. I did have to work, so I was surrounded by friends, and I told them what day it was.. They were all very supportive and since it was a bit on the slow side(don't tell the boss) we ended up doing a lot of clowning around and just having a good night. And I did go out the next evening, dinner and a very good time in a jacuzzi, and a great time followed...

moo_nips 57F

6/10/2006 2:04 pm

i've had some tough ones myself, but that image you describe of crying in the doorway is a real tear jerker...glad you enjoyed the sad date...maybe not so sad anymore!

oldemt47 69M

6/14/2006 2:30 pm

Some things DO happen for the best. I hope you can resolve the issues. Will not go into detailes here, but I can relate. Live On and UP. { }

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