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With all that has been said and done
Yet all that I get is
“Don’t push me into a corner!”
Have I really done that?
Pushed you so far
Beyond your limits?
I have failed you.
I have failed myself.
What about me?
How about my feelings,
My thoughts, my views?
How many times
Have I been pushed into a corner
That is so small,
There is no space
To move, to even breathe?
In all those times,
I felt so lonely,
So lost, so abandoned.
I could not say a word,
Nor breathe how I felt to anyone.
There is no place for me to run to.
There is no one whom I can turn to.
Words, spoken and unspoken
Really doesn’t have any weight.
Everything that I had done,
Am doing and will be doing,
Means little to you.
The extend of hurt which you have scarred me
Is something that I deal with myself.
The tables have always and
will always be turned against me.
No apologies were ever made
To heal my wounded heart,
To lift my forlorn spirit.
I cannot possibly blame you
For I allowed all this to happened
By not making my stand firm enough.
I have never dwelled in self-pity,
And I will never.
I choose to move on.
With or without you,
Physically, mentally, emotionally.
Who’s truly being pushed into a corner…?
Silly as I may be...
I have loved you,
I love you now
And I always will
With all my heart
With all my soul
I have accepted you
For all that you are
The good, the bad, the ugly
Please do the same for me
That is all I ask of you.
2/5/2006 5:17 pm
Wow! Are you actually in this kind of immediate pain? Intense. Here are some ideas that I got for you while reading your post. Give yourself the apology...give it sincerely like you would to a dear friend you accidentally wounded or harmed in some way. Forgive yourself. Say...hornyhornysandy, I love you and I forgive. Say it over and over until you begin to hear it and it sinks slowly into your heart. Give gratitude to who ever you believe is in power for giving you an enormous capacity to love as you do. And finally think of way to make amends to yourself for allowing this harm to come to you. How will you make emends to yourself?|
2/5/2006 5:32 pm
Sandy, you write love poem more and more better.|
2/5/2006 6:27 pm
2/6/2006 5:31 am
Eyes of despair not..
You are not silly....
Like what Grace_Sweetly and funsassy says...
The greatest is all is to be able to give love, happiness and forgiveness...
If there is a chance of communication with emtion... there is a chance of talking out of the corner and moving to open....
Look @ the brighter side... There are two sides to a coin...
2/6/2006 10:59 pm
what are we all seeking? Happiness and at times when we feel down, the people who we loved and cared are no longer interested in our well being and here we are seeking comfort from complete strangers....... and strangely we feel more comforted via this media. good luck to you and maybe we can be the strangers we seek in each other.|
2/7/2006 1:44 am
"I choose to move on. |
With or without you,....."
Well... move on then... nobody can cheer you up except you yourself. Stay away from depressing songs and movies. Watch a comedy or talk to a friend whom adores you. I'll bet you'll be happier in seconds.
2/7/2006 4:02 am
i am really moved by the pain u exhibit in your words....i can't say that i can share your pain even if i can because in luv it is like in all things, pain belongs to the hurt but time is a healer of all wounds.
it never ceases to amaze me how some people who are in "love" can actually hurt the one they luv. for even if one cannot give back the same amount of love that your love deserves, the least that one can do is not to inflict more hurt.
as a final word, i jsut have this quotation for your wounded heart :
"Doubt that the sun doth move, doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt I love"
in short dear, he never deserved you true love, so pls move on.
a true man who cannot be with his true luv will in all his might attempt to give her true happiness by soothing her pain.
sorry if i have gotten slightly carried away or hurt u by my words but wishing you all the best dear....keep smiling
2/7/2006 9:58 pm
Why go to the corner, find some other place to go.|
Well I do agree sometime it is hard to give up something this you love most, but if it doesn't belongs to you then keep it at arms length and move on to elsewhere.
Anyway a friend is a friend after all if it cannot go any further then keep it as a friend.
2/10/2006 1:58 am
the best thing to do ryte now is ket yr hair down n juz enjoy yrself..... cheers babe! keep yr haed high|