confusion..  

hopefull20069 47M
252 posts
8/7/2006 7:56 pm

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confusion..


its 3.30 on a tuesday morning, im awake for reasons you dont need to know,but the thoughts im having are haunting my life.
ive lost directionand seem to be aimlessly wandering, my work is soffering , as im not intrested and find that i take time off just because i can( not that i can afford..). my love life is more frought with more questions than i have answers. what do i want? i dont know..
but i dont want to hurt anyone, or myself. i want to have fun and enjoy my life, but the past is allways there lurking in the back of my mind to remind me of what ive done.
ive been told to relax and go with the flow, but dose that mean been selfish and doing what i want?
ive been told to stop analysing everything, but isent that how we make our desisions about everything we do, to weigh up all the facts we know and make a desision from them??

i think the real problem is i dont know who i am. im father, son, lover, ex,

time for bed i think...lol
to dream sweet dreams offf...................

hopefull20069 47M

8/9/2006 3:12 pm

    Quoting rm_vanilla4548:
    A really wise Yorkshire guy told me not to worry about what I think others think I ought to be but to be myself....and I guess if you listened carefully to him he'd tell you not to listen to what others are saying ... if you are at home with yourself analysing everything then you'll not be true to yourself if you do life any other way. If going with the flow feels wrong only you can decide that.

    Yes, you are father, son, lover ,ex.....you are the sum total of all the fragments that have led up to this point in life. Some may have shared in parts of you, but you are unique and none of those other people can know what it is like to be you.

    So I'm not even going to tell you what I think you should or shouldn't do...you are you, now is now and your life is for you to live...

    You're not alone, though, in thoughts messing up your head at 3am if that's any comfort. Hope you got some sleep eventually
    xx
ahh sounds like a wise yorkshire guy..lol
but arnt we all...
thank you for your coments, just to have someone put it all into perspective is all that is needed sometimes.i'll try to live my life my way..

(all most feel like singing a sinatra song....pmsl..)


allegroconamore 60M
13 posts
8/10/2006 5:54 pm

I think conscience and self-evaluation are signs of a growing person. Conscience is certainly the first step towards being a good person, and self-evaluation is the first step towards self-realisation. The only problem is that the roads are filled with false starts and you will often take that first step a number of times.

I remind myself that I am the person I always have to sleep with, so I try to behave in a way that I am comfortable with. That isn't as easy to do as it is to write.

It's not hard to guess who the Yorkshire guy is, but it points up that change always comes from within. Sometimes, other people are lucky enough to be in the right place to remind you of that, but the reality is that you will sort it out, no matter how frustrating the twisted sheet is at 3am, or how horribly cheerful that bird chorus sounds an hour later.

I have a friend who says, in reply to the usual polite question "Always well". Often things are not, but he knows that the strength comes from within, and he is who he wants to be.

Vanilla wrote something very interesting on baggage, you've probably read it, but it underlines that we have to be accepted as the sum of all the parts of our lives. The adversity made us strong, the joy made us happy, the experience gave us wisdom, and that is the unique package we offer to the world, to be added to by each experience.

Funny you mention Sinatra, I quoted one of his daughters songs in a thread elsewhere. But I couldn't sing it. [grin]

D


hopefull20069 47M

8/10/2006 11:59 pm

    Quoting allegroconamore:
    I think conscience and self-evaluation are signs of a growing person. Conscience is certainly the first step towards being a good person, and self-evaluation is the first step towards self-realisation. The only problem is that the roads are filled with false starts and you will often take that first step a number of times.

    I remind myself that I am the person I always have to sleep with, so I try to behave in a way that I am comfortable with. That isn't as easy to do as it is to write.

    It's not hard to guess who the Yorkshire guy is, but it points up that change always comes from within. Sometimes, other people are lucky enough to be in the right place to remind you of that, but the reality is that you will sort it out, no matter how frustrating the twisted sheet is at 3am, or how horribly cheerful that bird chorus sounds an hour later.

    I have a friend who says, in reply to the usual polite question "Always well". Often things are not, but he knows that the strength comes from within, and he is who he wants to be.

    Vanilla wrote something very interesting on baggage, you've probably read it, but it underlines that we have to be accepted as the sum of all the parts of our lives. The adversity made us strong, the joy made us happy, the experience gave us wisdom, and that is the unique package we offer to the world, to be added to by each experience.

    Funny you mention Sinatra, I quoted one of his daughters songs in a thread elsewhere. But I couldn't sing it. [grin]

    D
thank you for your coments.
this reminds me why i stay on line, its full of people who are willing to help you even if they dont know you.thers such a fantastic feeling about it all.
it lifts the spirits and gives you hope..
thank you ...


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