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over the last six months ive changed, nothing to dramatic for me, ive not seen the light and run off to nepal to become a Buddhist monk, or given away all my worthily goods to become a hermit( don't have that many goods to start with?)
but ive started to do things i haven't done before.
there only small things but taken as a whole,its still only small things.
I'm normally a shy person who doesn't want to embarrass myself, so i talk myself out of doing lots of things, i'd like to do..
i ve visited sex shops and bought dvd's, walking in there took some nerve for me, who was in there, would i get embarrassed.far from it, there was a couple of men in there, but they were busy looking at the stock so didn't notice me.i started to look around and spent quite a while in there, i chose some dvd's and went to pay for them, as i was at the counter, two Lady's walked in and started asking the assistant about the quality of the strap'ons he had in stock, i felt like a pervert to start with, then thought, there here to buy something to have fun with, whats the shame in that??? so i finished buying my dvds and walked out the shop with my silver and black bag, to find the road full of bradford city supporters going home after the match.
as i went to my car my thoughts went from, they think I'm a pervert to they couldn't give a dam. thats when i thought i had to change, and do things i wanted to? and not be bothered what people may think of me ?
my next shopping spree was to buy a vibrator for my partner, i know what i wanted, an luminescent one! the shop in question in keighley is on a main route to the train station so lots of people about, lucky for me i could park near by. the shop looked dark,so i couldn't tell if there was any one inside, i took a deep breath and walked in, just me, phew,then i went over to the vibrator display, well ive never seen them up close before, all shapes and sizes?
i couldn't find what i wanted, so i asked the assistant, who was so helpfull. they didn't have one, so i bought a rabbit who likes showers..
ive been to a few more now, and they are so helpfull, the image i had of seedy flea pits is all wrong, the one on Wakefield road, bradford is large, well stocked, and with helpfull staff. I'll be going bask, thats for shure???