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honestandreal30 41F
211 posts
3/14/2006 10:32 pm

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3/23/2006 2:29 pm

Leaving


I am sad and sorry to be writing this blog, for it will probably be my last. I have tried hard to meet some people and have new experiences. Yet the truth and underlying lies, I can not continue with.

I have always been completely honest in everything I have written in my blogs, my posts, my emails and my chats. That is who I am!! Yet there are those who continue to use that honesty and take advantage of my innocence. Yes I do have innocence.

However, in order for me to keep that, i believe i must leave this site. I will be turning off my profile in the next few days to a week. just long enough for my friends here in blog land to get this message.

To those of you i have meet here...and you know the few i speak of...my heart will forever remeber you. for those i that do not know who i am referring to....babel_fish...tillerbabe...lesbianxxxpilots and carebearluv2.....

all of you will forever be with me. and maybe one day by chance....

take care, stay strong, and remember, there is always hope!

honest
real

Babel__Fish 45F

3/15/2006 5:02 am

Aweee!! I wish that you would stay but I understand that it is your choice. I will miss you sweetie.

You should blog for you and you alone and try not to let the 'bad' one's get you down.

Maybe instead of leaving take a short break from the blogs, turn off your profile and think about the things and people that you will miss and who will miss you most of all!

*kusjes* sweet lady and I hope to be seeing you back.

Babel


honestandreal30 41F

3/15/2006 7:15 am

babel.. you break my heart and bring tears down my cheeks...so much i wish you were closer. i may continue to do my blogs, but i am not sure yet. i know that i will not be looking to chat or meet anyone in the near future. unless of course it is you or one of the others i mentioned here.

honest
real


scorpmail66 50M
260 posts
3/15/2006 1:40 pm

hi honest,

I agree with babel you should write you own blog for you, i didnt get the chance to get to know you very well, but wish you all the best with whatever you do, its a shame to see you go because of some bad apples in the cart, i will miss the great view on your blog( yes your bottom its really very nice) im sure the rest of you is equally as nice too

huggs
scorps
aka Dean
xx


carebearluv2 41F

3/15/2006 8:17 pm

Honest,

I've been a blogger since last October and have seen alot of people come and go. This site is so full of drama it is ridiculous. I sit back, take it all in and I am appalled at the way people who are supposed to be adults act.

A few months ago, some drama broke out and Tiller had to take a break. It was a hard time for me because I hated feeling like I was losing a friend. I have that same feeling reading this post.

Please don't let others scare you away from blogging. Do it because you love it, do it because you are bored, do it because it is your creative outlet but don't stop doing it because of someone that never deserved the pleasure of knowing you to begin with.

I hope you decide not to leave. If you do, please make sure you find a way to send me your contact information. I would love to chat and get to know you...after all, you are a Tennessean!


honestandreal30 41F

3/15/2006 9:32 pm

scorp...thanks for the comment on my pic and for the concern. i will take time to make a decision...it will not be a sudden but well thought through.

honest
real


honestandreal30 41F

3/15/2006 9:36 pm

carebear...i haven't known you for long but my heart was captured by the first blog of yours i read. i felt such a connection in our lives and still do. would love to chat with you whether i stay or not.

i will be sure to let everyone one know my final decision.

honest
real


tillerbabe 55F

3/15/2006 11:06 pm

NO!!!! NO! YOU CANNOT LEAVE! My dear, you will leave a huge empty space that cannnot be filled..and I need you as my cyber-massage therapist! YOu have to do what you have to do and you have my support, but I am saddened by this news. Please just "take a break"...I did, sometimes you have to. and if you're hurting...stay with us so we can be there for you!

plz check your email {=}


honestandreal30 41F

3/16/2006 7:44 am

(crying)....Tiller...Jez....i swear you all are breaking my heart even more. I just don't know what I am going to do. I know my heart can not continue with all the deception

I have enjoyed writing my blogs and reading your alls. The blogs are not the problem....

honest
real


honestandreal30 41F

3/16/2006 8:21 am

tiller...nothing in my email??


honestandreal30 41F

3/17/2006 7:31 am

jenna.... such a sweet suprise to hear from you. yes it is hard on my heart and i need no more pain and deception in my life. I am still undecided of what i am going to do. Taking a break and turning off my profile sounds really good. I just still am unsure if i should just delete my profile and be done with it all....

honest
real


honestandreal30 41F

3/17/2006 11:45 am

    Quoting Sensuous_Salz:
    Honest,
    I do not know you other than the comments I have seen you leave in some of my friends blogs. This is my first visit to yours. Like life in general, there are people here that are exactly what they portray in their profiles, blogs and group postings. There are others that wear a mask that it takes time to see past. This is life, my dear. No, it is not as it should be and can lead to pain and anger. I have learned however, if you let people that hide behind a mask leave you angry and bitter, they have one a piece of your soul you can not reclaim until you let go of the anger and bitterness. Do you really want to give these people that part of you? They certainly are not worth it. You have received some wise advice from people I admire and have known for sometime now. I hope you will consider it and not jump to do something you may regret later. I've done the delete and leave thing, and it left a void I could never imagine. I'd be happy to talk with you further if you would like.

    All the best to you,
    Salz
thank you for stopping by and for caring. i am considering everything my friends here say and my own feelings. i will not act without thinking things thru.

honest
real


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