Ghosts... who turn up like bad pennies....  

helga_hansen 49F  
3122 posts
7/30/2005 4:36 pm

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Ghosts... who turn up like bad pennies....

My first AdultFriendFinder anniversary has come and gone. Technically, it's not my first... I had another handle this time last year. But, in my mind, it's a year. Back then, I had another handle... and admittedly, photos on that profile that weren't mine. It all started as a joke...

I decided to choose some sexy photos, and say they were mine. I never, in a million years, expected to get so many emails. But I did, and from those emails, struck up a few friendships. There were three notable ones... men I shall remember always. Men that I shared EVERYTHING with... my feelings, my emotions, my thoughts... we chatted long into the night... we chatted on the phone... hell, we just chatted. As the weeks went by, I felt more and more guilty... I knew that these men would be angry if they knew that I wasn't really the girl in the pics. But still I carried on...

One day, it all came out. I owned up to not being the girl in the pics, and paid the price. Those men turned their backs on me, and I've not heard from them since. Life, and exams, got in the way, and AdultFriendFinder became a bad dream.

Months later, after passing my exams, I was back... and this time I was going to do it properly. No more lies, no more false pics. Since then, I have had fun, and enjoyed moments of laughter. I've chatted, I've made and met new friends... and above all, I've been me. My only regret is that I didn't do it sooner.

Why am I writing this? Well, one of my old "friends" suddenly arrived in the Euro Hot Tub this week... and all my memories came flooding back. He never greeted me, nor said a word. I felt foolish, but at the same time proud... I was there as ME... and everything was truthful. However, I did remember the guilt... and my remorse. I only hope that time will help him to forgive me... and perhaps, when he visits the Euro Hot Tub, he will say "hi" instead of sitting there, saying nothing at all.

And to all my friends... thank you for being there... this is for YOU!


PS... The photo alongside is the one I used in my first profile... not me... and I admit it!!

Love, hugs and kisses from ♥♥HH♥♥

freetime648 52F

7/31/2005 4:56 am

Miss are the best and no matter to me what picture you put up!! LOL

xx FREETIME648 xx

UnpinAfireFaust 57M

7/31/2005 8:21 am

I didn't know the "yesterday" you, so won't offer any comments on that. I do know the "today" you....a intelligent, cheerful and very beautiful woman who has a way of always leaving me with a smile. Thank you for that Miss Helga!!

rm_EE407 41F
3903 posts
7/31/2005 12:36 pm

Helga,.. I think I've only known you as Helga.... but I applaud your change of heart and maybe your friend will come round. Does he even know you under this handle???

Groetjes en Knuffels,
See you in EHT,


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