A letter to a friend...  

helga_hansen 49F  
3122 posts
11/15/2005 1:31 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

A letter to a friend...

Remember, remember the 5th of November,
Gunpowder, treason and plot.

The 5th was a funny evening for me, and I don't mean funny "ha ha". I was coping with some goddamn awful pain, my mind most definitely impaired by the cocktail of medication I was taking, and in my (I personally think non-existent) wisdom I decided to dive into the Euro Hot Tub for a bit.

Sitting there was a fellow blogger, Tubber and friend. He made a comment that I probably totally misinterpreted, and before I knew it, I was giving him what-for. Poor bloke... I don't think he knew what hit him.

After me pouring my heart out, and reading his replies, I hit a real low emotionally, and left the Tub, despite his requests not to. He claimed alcohol was fueling his words, but I think not. I think he was trying to help me save face.

I immediately felt guilty... here was I, ruining a friendship offered to me by a person I admire, and whose words of wisdom I have always taken to heart, and usually followed.

So, I wrote him an email. But I guess I still had some of that "fight" in me, and I probably said things very wrongly, and very badly (like my English just then).

How do I know this?

Well, he never replied to my email, and since that time, I can feel the distance yawning between us. Whenever we happen to be in the Tub together, he is polite, but distant. Probably very pissed off with me, and rightly so.

Friend... forgive this foolish woman for being so very selfish and self-obsessed. I have (hopefully) regained my sanity (amazing what a reduction in medication can do) and I see now that I have made many, many mistakes, and the consequences have been of my own doing.

And to all the other friends I have successfully managed to alienate through my often cynical tongue... I am sorry too. I miss you all, even if you don't miss me.


*** The picture is by Dutch artist Jan Vermeer, and is entitled Lady Writing A Letter With Her Maid... I am the lady, and this blog is my maid...


Love, hugs and kisses from ♥♥HH♥♥


bullseyetou 63M
175 posts
11/15/2005 4:14 pm

its never fun crossing a friend even if we believe our statement to be correct. I usually stand by what I say. I have been accused or being ruthfully honest many times. It dosen't feel any better.

I also have been known to state in error. Shoot from the hip as it were. Thats a tough spot when u discover your error. Best of luck.

Bull


GB_Cple 66M/55F  
3044 posts
11/15/2005 11:22 pm



not easy saying sorry in public ,

Brave helga ,
love and kisses


rm_vincent697 60M
4 posts
11/16/2005 6:52 am

HI HELGA WE HAVE NEVER CONVERSED BUT I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN LED TO BELIEVE A TRUE FRIEND WOULD UNDERSTAND HOW YOU WERE FEELING AT THE TIME AND SHOULD HAVE GIVEN EXCEPTION (special case).


UnpinAfireFaust 57M

11/16/2005 9:02 am

Everyone has a bad day or two Helga, from time to time. Anyone worth calling a friend knows that and should understand. Sometimes even with a friend, it may take a few days to sort things out again. Hope it all works out.


AlbertPrince 58M

11/18/2005 5:49 am

It's a good job I ignore all of your insults


JJKittyKat 59F

11/18/2005 5:58 am

I'm sure you will be forgiven


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