impatience!!!!!!!!!!!  

hedonist5152 65M/64F
21 posts
10/31/2005 8:33 am

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impatience!!!!!!!!!!!


Still 4 months to wait till i get my implant in left breast. I am not known for being patient, being a woman i suppose, we usually want what we want RIGHT NOW!! I want to be able to show my two breasts to the world, but im shy about revealing right breast cause it has no nipple yet, that's the main reason, the scars dont bother me, why should they after what i've been through! IT doesnt stop me enjoyin myself and thank you folks for not being pushy, i have no idea what i'll look like after the op but i dont care, just as long as both look the same size. At present i'm using cleavage enhancer to balance both.
Hey!! have you read in the Daily Record that some women who have had breast cancer have stopped taking their anti-carcinogenic pills because they hate the side-effects i.e.hot flushes and night sweats!! Now please excuse me but WHY THE HELL are they doin that? Would they rather run the risk of it returning? The sweats are utterly HORRIBLE AND VERY UNCOMFORTABLE, wearing synthetic materials makes it worse so i wear cotton when i can. I DO NOT stop taking my pills, NO WAY!! Cant understand these women,really really STUPID decision to make!! OK, when the flushes start, first i sweat all over and feel wet and sticky and if i'm wearing make-up i cant wipe my face properly, then when the sweats subside i get the chills and have to put my jacket/whatever back on. In the house the fire is off and on all night. So are my blouses or cardies. In bed i wear a T-shirt to soak some of it, and it spares the sheet a little from gettin too wet. I've not had 1 full night's sleep since all this started, and of course it disturbs hubbies sleep too. BUMMER!!
When i rise in the morning i am cold as soon as i get out of bed and have to wear a fleece till after i've eaten, by which time i feel i'm at a normal temperature.
It is a SMALL price to pay, the sweats, rather that than runnin the risk of it returnin. I know there is no 1% guarantee in life that bad things wont happen again and i've faced old Death in the face, he's(?) not the ENEMY just a part of existence we have to accept cause there aint NUTHIN we can do to avoid it. i feel so free, now that i have, well not LOST my fear but it's certainly decreased, i try to look on it as an unknown journey we all have to do on our own, scary biscuits eh? lol.
What pisses me off is the fact both my arms are weaker than before and hubby has to do a lot of things for me, e.g.cutting my food, washing hair etc. He's been a tower of strength and supported me when i felt like shit. Thank you Fates for giving me him. love him to bits!!
Well, had my gripe so i'll go now, any other woman who has had this devastating news, dont hesitate to contact me, i'll do what i can to help you through it. No probs. Ta Ta for now!!
xxxxxxxxxx

rm_lickmepretty 50F
851 posts
11/18/2005 11:35 pm

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