hi this is a new venture for me  

heavenly_body39 60F
740 posts
8/24/2005 9:31 am

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8/21/2006 11:14 am

hi this is a new venture for me

it's a new day...i woke up stiff and sore from some great fucking on sunday and monday nights. i am hoping to drift awhile this week; there seems to be an unlimited number of people wanting a part of me on this site. this unfortunately overwhelms me at times...and i then feel like closing up shop. it's a bit like trolling for fish in a barrel.

i would love for the primary man in my life to love me as much as i adore him. looks like this won't happen...much as i ache to have this be. i wonder at times if i am being used and manipulated...and this hurts. and the irony is, i have dozens of men who would kill to spend the night with me. how does this happen?? in the choices we make?

i am learning how incredible i am as a woman and a lover. after being in a dry marriage for so long, this feels like rain on a parched desert. i have no regrets about leaving him, especially when exploring my sexually adventurous side.

life is good!

rm_4nik8_4u 61M
2501 posts
8/24/2005 11:55 am

One sided love is a one way ticket to pain. Never assume your worth based on anothers love or lack of. Rather base your worth on what you feel about yourself. It sounds like you are moving in this directon. Keep moving. But never harden your heart to love, only to those who bear false love. Love large!

homme_514 37M

8/24/2005 12:09 pm

As you say "life is good". I am sure you will find the right person. If the other person does not love you as much as you adore him, the problem is not you. It is him.
You will get what you are looking for.

Tryinhard3 56M/55F

8/24/2005 12:30 pm

I see the key in your statement that you are "learning how incredible i am as a woman and a lover". This may be the key to life in general. Until we believe in ourselves and until we are happy with who we are, we just aren't gonna find our "perfect" mate.
Before I met my wife she had been with a bunch of losers because she had no self esteem. She felt worthless and was attracting worthless guys. Now she is blossoming into a beautiful woman who feels good about herself. Life is based on attraction. We are what we think we are. Trust that you are just as beautiful inside as you are outside and believe you can attract the man of your dreams. Believe it in your heart that you deserve a great man and he will just show up. My other advice is that you have to kss a lot of frogs before you find a prince. Best of luck to you!

rm_bearleee 71M

8/24/2005 4:29 pm

Nicely put. I understand where you are as I am currently in a sexless marriage. My feast came before my famine though because I had alot of sex when I was a bachelor. I am not so sure that my wife would care if I had a relationship outside of the marriage as it would simply mean that she wouldn't have to deal with me possibly wanting it from her. We are good enough friends that there isn't the hatred there that alot of people have that are in a non-physical marriage. Some people like sex and some don't, it's as simple as that. Glad to see you got yourself into a good physical one, but the love is not reciprical and that can hurt. Good luck.

rm_redttopzcar1 51M
1 post
8/24/2005 7:07 pm

if the right chemistry is there it will happen


you cant ignore that!!!!

gix58 58M

8/24/2005 7:59 pm

you seems to know what your doing and that is 3 steps ahead of most that show up here...you are right about dozens of men wanting to share you bed with you..how can you blame them??..i do hope your "man" walks into your life when your not expecting it..it seems to be so much sweeter that way..good luck with your journey, and stay focused..

4funinkent 51M
1 post
8/25/2005 5:04 pm

very eloquent angel. I feel the same my relationships have ben with sexually claosed woman while have a very wild kinky appetite. My dream has been to find a woman that enjoys sex and loves to get nasty with other people groups. A woman who enjoys the sexual exploration. a woman that gets off being fucked by several men sucking multiple cocks getting covered in cum and wants a man who will kiss her while her mouth is full of jizz eat her fresh fucked pussy and ass. then send the play partners off and give her a hot bubble bath and treat as the angel she is

rm_anacortes 74M
2850 posts
8/30/2005 8:07 pm

Hope you will feel like the GODDESS that you are soooon, if not already..

Lots of love to you and friends..


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