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My bedroom is a special place of solitude and beauty. It soothes me to be here, with my meaningful artwork and bed like an oasis in the middle of the room.
It is calm and comfortable,with a deck outside to sit and enjoy mimosas or coffee. Every piece of furniture and artwork has been chosen to act as a symbol, or to make the space absolutely feminine (not frilly at all.)
I want people to sigh with joy when they climb the stairs and enter my bedroom. I want them to see how much of me is in here.
My dear friend Daniel admonishes me regularly to find solace and happiness in myself, alone. To love coming home just to spend time with myself.
This completely contradicts my lifestyle for the entire past year. I avoided home, my bed, in my anxious, restless quest as "Fuckwoman." It was nearly manic, my need to distract myself from the fear, anxiety and pain I felt.
But now I can honestly say I love my spaces. I bought many plants yesterday to plant new planters, and last week I bought a windspinner.
It spins from my deck high above the other buildings in a helix type formation. Depending on the wind's direction, it tangles and I find myself monitoring and taking care of it many times a day.
Yet I love the color and whimsey of it; I am looking at it through my deck door as I write this. And sure enough, it needs untangling again.
But it is so worth the work. My windspinner will fly as freely as I will; my friends will untangle me as I go.
Do you have an absolutely favorite space at home?
8/6/2006 8:12 am
No favorite space yet. I am still building it inside of me... but I do love the wind... It is soft and tender on my skin... I mounted a wind chime on the inside of my kitchen door... It's my small joke... no wind... but it IS my acknowledgement of my home as I come and go.. Come to think of it.. my entire home is my favorite space...|