On this side  

heavenly_body39 60F
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8/14/2006 1:31 pm
On this side

I look back behind me, under me now as I pull myself up out of the vat of goo I found myself stuck in when I took the leap to leave.

I made it!! I am making it, finally. I knew I would have to be the one to rescue myself from the muck of fear and guilt/sadness/regret. I knew that only I could pull myself up, muscles straining, aching, tears streaming, teeth bared in a grimace with the effort of it.

My friends, not knowing who they were...some I would only know for a moment...cheered me on, ignorant of my need to borrow their energy for a while. I picked up life wisdom from so many people and sources. Most never knew their impact on me and this was their true gift. Life is like that: you do the best you can to pull each other up, make a difference, give some energy one encounter at a time.

OOhh, but the rewards for all that work are so many! The light, the gentle warmth, the perfect air scented with jasmine and rose, the sound of the wind in the trees. I am as terrified as I have ever been, to allow myself to just...be...


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