Getting to Happy, again  

heavenly_body39 60F
740 posts
9/5/2006 3:14 pm

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Getting to Happy, again

How would it be just to go a day and feel total joy in every moment? To let go of all the worries and thoughts of unhappiness, to allow myself bliss, ecstasy, contentment?

My ex father in law believes you choose to be happy, or unhappy. While this could be seen as a simplistic approach to life, (I see it as nearly annoying in its smugness) there is some beauty to the belief that you create your internal mental state.

So what does it take to let go, allow oneself to simply feel joy? I wonder how many of us adults know what it feels like to be happy?

I am beginning to find the time I spend with a dear man, as it becomes richer, allows for more feelings of happiness and joy (especially as his lover.) While this joy cannot be sustained, just the fact that I can extend it past a post-coital state is amazing to me. I have been hunkered down so long, in my bunker, awaiting either the next untracked scud missile or the end of the war, that the state of happiness is nearly unrecognizable to me. I think, though I am not sure, that if I sit quietly I can feel the stirrings of happy.

Happy, like courage, does not mean there are NOT things that get in the way of expressing it. It means despite your fears, your anxieties, you get back to happy again and again. This is one huge area I need to learn more about.

My ex-husband said to me as I left the marriage, almost as a parting curse, "You will never be happy!" I told him then as I tell you now, "let me give it a try and see. Put me in coach, I'm ready to play!"

What is this around the corner? Could it be...


buddhamike 105M
7006 posts
9/5/2006 3:32 pm

It's true. You do chose to be happy or unhappy. Sounds like you're ready to give it a try. Good for you.

TheRealThing655 48F
9558 posts
9/5/2006 8:57 pm

My husband said the SAME thing to me...that I will never be happy. But I think they are the ones who won't be.
Glad you are enjoying happiness and learning to make it last...he better be a wonderful man to you!

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