Damn...got taken again  

heavenly_body39 60F
740 posts
8/26/2005 9:20 am

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Damn...got taken again

Here I sit, naked in my bed on the morning of my last Friday off. I have the ingredients for mimosas in my fridge but no one to share them with. I should get up, be productive, pay some bills but here I am on this site, again. Ironic that I have over 200 unanswered emails from men who want a part of me yet I slept alone again last night.

Some of this is sheer aversion at this point. I am really feelingthe need to pull back and re-evaluate my sexual explorations. If they leave me feeling used and unloved...why engage? So many many players here, who in the pursuit of casual, noncommital sex, find a willing playerin me. Yet I'm left with a sense of holding an empty bag.

He was gorgeous, handsome, but after a slightly dissatisfying tumble that lasted 20 minutes he made clear that future meetings at my place meant having a 'relationship' and he had no time in his busy busy life for this...and, although I'm not looking for a LTR I do like to feel as though someone values me enough to put some seduction energy into me. I missed the warning signs...until I can figure out how I'll pull back awhile.

Time to go find a way to pay some bills...

rm_4nik8_4u 61M
2501 posts
8/26/2005 11:09 am

Some people have problems with any level of commitment. Even if it's only to come back for a little "non-commital" sex. I hate to say it but even if you tell a man what you want and expect he will agree and tell you anything that will get you in the sack. Mission accomplished! You need to do these things on your own terms and evaluate just exactly what it is you want and expect. Then figure out how you're going to find those few men who understand and are really willing to comply just to be able to take you to dinner and get to know you and make friends before assuming you'll be in the sack after dinner. Good luck figuring it out sweetie.

heavenly_body39 60F
157 posts
8/26/2005 1:10 pm

yes, thank you for your kind yet frank comments. i am doing a lot of thinking on this, today. i also wonder how effective this site is in attracting and more importantly, culling this type of man. i have made many dear friends through AdultFriendFinder...but we all are so 'transient'. while this has served me well in the past, with the new season brings perhaps change.

btw...lol...your ass rivals mine, 4nik8!

kokpelli_999 61M

9/1/2005 1:54 pm

Our sexual adventures add to our treasure chest of experiences. However the compartment containing moments of love fills much slower. My sexual adventures are becoming more predictable and forseen. Much like the changing of tides, rather than gusts of wind.

rm_Rookie128 49M

9/2/2005 10:29 pm

Many on A F F are looking for a casual encounter and/or adventure, but afterwards, some feel it was a hollow event. What would bring meaning to the event? The participants giving 100% at that moment, or knowing the partner is available 24/7 for the duration? A LTR is a scary thing, especially when a person was in one which recently ended, but the potential rewards seem very appealing indeed.

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