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Damn...got taken again
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Aug 26, 2005 9:20 am
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Here I sit, naked in my bed on the morning of my last Friday off. I have the ingredients for mimosas in my fridge but no one to share them with. I should get up, be productive, pay some bills but here I am on this site, again. Ironic that I have over 200 unanswered emails from men who want a part of me yet I slept alone again last night.
Some of this is sheer aversion at this point. I am really feelingthe need to pull back and re-evaluate my sexual explorations. If they leave me feeling used and unloved...why engage? So many many players here, who in the pursuit of casual, noncommital sex, find a willing playerin me. Yet I'm left with a sense of holding an empty bag.
He was gorgeous, handsome, but after a slightly dissatisfying tumble that lasted 20 minutes he made clear that future meetings at my place meant having a 'relationship' and he had no time in his busy busy life for this...and, although I'm not looking for a LTR I do like to feel as though someone values me enough to put some seduction energy into me. I missed the warning signs...until I can figure out how I'll pull back awhile.
Time to go find a way to pay some bills...
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MMMMmmmm....Nothing like a public fuck
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Aug 25, 2005 7:41 am
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Im feeling tired but good this morning. Last night my favorite lover and I went to the 'swing club' where we are members. After swimming naked in the pool, and chatting with others in the hottub, we went upstairs to find adventure.
One couple we had found interesting somehow managed to squirrel themselves away in a private cubby somewhere. We looked for them to play with...she had gorgeous breasts...but only saw them leave shortly afterwards. The good thing about going with my guy is that he is my favorite lover so even if we do not engage with others we still have fun. We were very 'in the moment' last night. I enjoyed showing my naked, tight body off...as an avid exhibitionist it arouses me to arouse others visually. I love the visual tease.
We found a favorite location which afforded a splendid view of two cpls and a single female engaged in loudly orgasmic eating, sucking, fisting, and fucking. While my guy watched I sucked him off,including rimming him. Then it was my turn as he licked me, skillfully to orgasm. He then plunged deeply into me from behind, finishing us both off with me on my back facing him. I came, loudly, for a long time. I absolutely love when he roars into his orgasm...he shudders as he completely empties into my pussy, mouth, or ass. I always feel completely and thoroughly fucked...he is above average in thickness and while I never thought size mattered, I adore his cock.
After I massaged his back with scented oil we left and drove home. As always, not sure when I'll see him again. This is truly a lesson in staying 'present'.
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hi this is a new venture for me
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Aug 24, 2005 9:31 am
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it's a new day...i woke up stiff and sore from some great fucking on sunday and monday nights. i am hoping to drift awhile this week; there seems to be an unlimited number of people wanting a part of me on this site. this unfortunately overwhelms me at times...and i then feel like closing up shop. it's a bit like trolling for fish in a barrel.
i would love for the primary man in my life to love me as much as i adore him. looks like this won't happen...much as i ache to have this be. i wonder at times if i am being used and manipulated...and this hurts. and the irony is, i have dozens of men who would kill to spend the night with me. how does this happen?? in the choices we make?
i am learning how incredible i am as a woman and a lover. after being in a dry marriage for so long, this feels like rain on a parched desert. i have no regrets about leaving him, especially when exploring my sexually adventurous side.
life is good!
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