i have a whopper of a story to tell!  

hearthappy25 36F
26 posts
6/21/2006 9:04 pm

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6/22/2006 10:34 pm

i have a whopper of a story to tell!


FINALLY!

my best friend and his girlfriend broke up. they lived together for 3 years and she left him because for the last three months she was very unhappy...he was a little shocked...but i think he knew it was over before it happened.

the whole 3 years i was not in the picture. we were best friends (or really good friends) since high school and have always cared about each other and been very sexually attracted to each other.

we've told each other we've loved each other but never got together because we never 'felt it was right'.

but since i came back in the picture was when she started feeling unhappy i think. i never did anything with him because i liked her and i thought they were happy....

of course the week after she left him he and i found ourselves having sex. finally...after 8 years we have wanted to have a sexual relatinoship and we finally might, at least a fling for now.......

he basically told me he had fantasized about having sex with me for a long time....and i could tell in his eyes he was honest. but i worry about it being rebound...

the only thing that might set this apart from the other rebound relationships is that we've been good friends for 8 years and we've dated on and off but i hadn't been ready for a sexual relationship until now, and he is, like most guys, incredibly sexual and dang when he walks into a room. we can't be in the same room without wanting to get naked and on the floor. it's been like that for 8 years.

my life is wierd without him. i have always loved him but have always faced the fact that because the way things were we would probably not end up together. but when we were holding each other on the couch i said 'you are bad for me, like a drug to me', and he said 'you're a drug to me too, i keep coming back'.... this was just two days ago.....

i don't want to get hurt again but i am aware that he could do what he always did but the one thing that has changed now is that we are having sex......and it's sooo good....i have always wanted this relationship with him and i know it's possibly rebound but for the time being it's fun...

ever since i got in contact with him he's always called, we see each other every couple of days even when he was with her...he couldn't keep from touching me in one way or another...

i can't stand it....i'm so in love with him and i always have been, since school. there is so much chemistry between us and i know he knows it...i know he loves me because i can feel it but i don't know if it's the same way i love him. i'm willing to accept that no matter how much it hurts, at least we will have gotten to have a great sexual fling....i will know he was mine for a few minutes anyway...

he told me i was his sexual fantasy for a long time....so i don't know.....at least i can have that for right now...i'm just being prepared to be heartbroken again....

is that saying true, if you let something go and it comes back it's yours? i didn't think i'd see him again but he came back and as soon as we started hanging out his girlfriend dumped him...but we didn't have sex or anything while we hung out, i liked her too much...he told me he still cared about me like i cared about him even tho he was with her...

o what to do, what to do?

i'm just going to have fun and try not to think...he's mine for the time being even if it is possibly a fling........i'm willing to suffer the hurt.......i hate being this in love with him but who knows how life will turn out right?

rm_TopCat789 53M
1 post
6/21/2006 10:41 pm

Very simple. It is what it is. Take each day for what it is that's all, it seems like worrying about what might happen tomorrow adds unnecessary burden to your experience. It also seems to me that even if it lasts for 2 weeks/months/years ,whatever, if you make the best out of each day you wont ever regret it. What is the alternative experience? Boredom? Loneliness? Always 55 degrees and partly cloudy? Come on, I think that today you are lucky. It is what it is, thats all


hearthappy25 36F
5 posts
6/22/2006 11:52 am

this is true. we already know we'll pretty much be spending the summer together...and i mentioned we'll have a warm winter together too and he looks at me and goes 'mmm-hmmm' so anyway...

it'll be great no matter what happens i know and what's worse is i guess i'm willing to put up with the let down at the end......

the thing is, this time around he really seems to care...we didn't have each other for 3 years and the last few months we were careful around each other because we didn't want to hurt her because they were in what we thought was a good relationship...so we'll see...but he ALWAYS mentioned our attraction to each other to me....apparantly it is still there

this is what happens when you and one of your best friends have so much sexual chemistry and shared history....

and an earring back is stuck in my earlobe and boy is it painful...ick...i can't get it out... anyone else have this expierence? i pierced ears a long time ago but we never covered what to do in this case...my ear is a nasty red but i'm being careful not to touch it....


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