What is Love  

rm_harshawj 51M
761 posts
8/31/2005 6:26 pm

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What is Love

Today was one of those days, you know the kind where you get what you need done early and have a bit of extra time to think. And while I was thinking I kept doing other things rather than think about this question because I thought it was a no brainer. Then I got to thinking…

For me, at the ripe old age of forty, do I really want the head over heals blinding type of love in my life? I have had that, and recently, and I am not sure that is for me any more. The blinding aspect for me has been out weighted a more mature, thought-out love that I want.

So what do I want? Well, I want passion, compassion, companionship, understanding and a partner who will compliment me in my life and to whom I compliment in theirs. Someone I can be me with, faults an all, and not have to worry about putting on a fa├žade. Someone I can care for and be cared for by. Someone to laugh with in good times, cry with in bad times, and someone who will listen to me when I need to vent and understand my cockeyed points of view, or is not understand them, at least acknowledge them. There is more, but they are all small points and not worth writing down.

Is this so out of line for my life? Am I not deserving of this in my life? I sometimes wonder. I know that I am with someone right now who covers all these needs, and I am happier now than I have been in a long time. But I am not sure she feels the same way. I am not sure if my own insecurities will let me understand that she feels the same way for me even if she says she does. She has said as much, but maybe I have to learn to be more accepting.

God I am screwed up. Why do I analysis everything. I have to stop that.

lushgirl69 49F

9/1/2005 6:19 am

I have had the experience of surrendering to a cathartic sort of love......I opened myself up to it and gave myself over completely...Funny enough, that's the motivation for my initial reaquaintance to this site...I had my hopes dashed against the rocks like so much driftwwood.......Don't you hate that feeling of angst when it crashes....I just felt like an imbecile for opening myself like that...I should have known better...All that jazz...Any way.. I guess it taught me that I still have the capacity for that kind of intense passion. I know I am jaded in some ways, but I am able to connect in a way that moves me and conducts electricity.......Don't get me wrong; it sucked. But I know what I want in the next real thing, I'll just be very cautious...

sincitybrunette 55F
1668 posts
9/1/2005 8:18 am

I think that it sounds like you would settle for something that makes you feel good at the moment. That isn't wrong for now. I know that in your 'ripe old age of forty" (give me a break) you don't know what is in store for the rest of your life, but everyone should have a person in their life that makes their knees weak and their blood pressure rise. Someone that they lose all track of time with. That is the type of love that I want and I don't think that I will settle for less than that this time ! ! !

duststormdiva 51F
6854 posts
9/10/2005 4:26 pm

That's a very interesting description of a deep, true and unconditional love. Glad you found it, maybe one day I will. I hope she realizes what she has.


UtterlyLuscious 30F

9/24/2005 9:11 pm

That was simply beautiful, and resounding.

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