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Thoughts for Sunday
Thoughts for Sunday
Hey All! I sure hope everyone is having a fine weekend. I have another big family day planned. Going to KC to look for furniture for one son, plus going to get a new computer for the other son. I'm going with my brother, my father, and my mother. Should be a good time for all of us.
Let me step back a little to my last post. I was all over the place with thoughts about how to do a self evaluation of the things that attract me to the opposite sex. I have looked at my up bringing and What I witnessed was a loving father that was a caring a good provider but dealt out the disciplined when necessary. My mother took care of our needs with laundry, cooking, and helped with our home work. I felt safe and secure as well as loved. Mistakes were made but it wasn't that bad. As a young man I was taught that little boys don't cry, if picked on stand up for yourself, but don't be the one starting trouble. Sex was to be learned from a set of books mom had us read otherwise it wasn't talked about. We went to church on Sunday whether we wanted to or not. That was the back ground I came from. Somehow I musta got lost! I began drinking at 17 yo and started doing drugs at 18 yo that ended after 25 yo of abuse and addiction, 3 separate incarcerations of 16 months, 180 days and 120 days. Today I have 39 months clean and sober. Not once did I see ether my mom or dad drink or do drugs. I wanted my woman to be a sexy dresser, wild child that was into fun, sex, drugs and rock & roll. She had to love to get high and fuck. Now that the drugs are gone that leaves a hugh hole in what I find attractive. The drugs and alcohol took there toll plus I'm getting older. Sex is still high on the list but I want someone that is deeper, smarter, has a love for life, and isn't driven to look for clothes, image and the latest dance move to derive self esteem. I see myself with a woman that enjoys a good book then talking to me about it. With a woman to watch a good movie, take long walks, eat at good restaurants and take trips into the city. But at nights I want her to be into me as much as I'm into her. I want to enjoy all aspects of sex with her making love with just her At the same time being hot, nasty. When secure in our love I would be open to threesomes or foursomes if that is what she needs or wants. Damn I want a lot! Well this is getting to long I'll end it for now. Peace out everybody!