To start things off.  

greywolfrider 49M
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8/27/2005 11:28 pm

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To start things off.


After 17 years of marriage : I've recently found myself single again. That's right: I moved out of a house that became four walls and EMPTY! Seventeen years of spending it with the one I thought was THE ONE. Only to realize that that is such a vain and insecure statement to make at such a naieve time in ones life. Have you ever been somewhere where there were alot of other people and yet have the feeling that you were completely alone? Thats the kind of environment I found I was in. I came home every time to a spouse and two kids(whom I love)(the children that is): and yet I felt completely alone. With three other people in the house! How can i feel alone? It seems these three people had their own lives that did'nt include me.? We feel secure and think that we are relevant to those around us and are only convincing ourselves that we mean something to them. It's a rough day when we wake up nly to find out that these strangers we once thought we knew: are independent and living their own lives. Seperate from ours. I'm not exagerating: I would sit down to the dinner table and hear my spouse and kids talking to each other in reference to me as if I were not even there in the same room! HELLO I'm RIGHT HERE! I would find myself screaming; inside anyway. No I was'nt going to be left out like this! It was time I did something about it! I MOVED OUT! Time to move on; start over; begin again! So; here's To STARTING OVER! Year number one:

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