I just needed to be reminded....  

goddessofbitches 41M/33F
5317 posts
11/3/2005 12:24 pm

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I just needed to be reminded....

OK...so I got several emails today in my mailbox from several members here on A.F.F. They all heard the same things...and now...my statement.

Yes...I was thinking of leaving blogville. Not because of anyone here, but because the shit has hit the fan. I am stepping up and doing some things I should have done years ago. I am taking my sisters from my mother because she is now with another man I hate...and this man is a threat to my sisters. I know he is. So now...I am going to fight for them...fight for a life for them.

Yes...those who talk on the phone with me are going to be like WHAT?? You never said anything about this?? Your right. My intentions here in blogland and when in conversation with most of you, are not to speak of anything bad. If you look back at my previous posts...I have rarely mentioned anything that is sad. In fact...I lost my cousin in September...only a handful of people know that.

I am not one for those pity comments..and I am also not one for wanting to bring people down. You know how it is...you are going along...in a good mood...and reading blogs. Then you stumble onto one that is really, REALLY sad. And your like Awe....then...if you are more empathetic to those people, you start to feel for them and it brings you down.

I only want to bring joy and laughter to those around me. I even like to piss them off sometimes because being pissed off every once in a while is good for you. Especially when you take it out on the keyboard...

So there it is ladies and gentlemen. No beating around the bush as they say...the goddess actually pondered leaving. Mostly because I was afraid I couldn't come up with anything happy at this point. Because I was afraid of not being strong. But then a lovely group of people opened my eyes to the fact that even if I am not strong this minute...I can overcome it. They all took time to let me know that my blog is special to them for a reason. Not because I am "popular" in blogland...for that shit there I don't care one way or another. It was because I inspire some, make them forget about their bad day....or just relate to them...and for that I want to stay. That is...if you all will forgive me for even considering leaving...and forgive me for putting up a front and not letting people know that even a GODDESS can break at times.

Unusually....I don't give a damn about sad details. I don't even give a damn about rude as people. I think the GODDESSOFBITCHES is coming back...and better than ever...she just needs a good shove and kick in the ass...

WHO'S with me?


Always The Bitch

digdug41 49M

11/3/2005 3:05 pm

See we're all connected and now you just may hear from people who have had to endure what your about to take on and there's nothing like family to get your back your a good sister and a nurturer by nature so do what you do best and fuck the rest I wish that I could offer more than words but I'll keep you in my prayers those are powerful enough cya mandy

roaming the cyber streets of blogland

saddletrampsk 54F

11/3/2005 3:24 pm

Bend over girl while I kicks ya with my roper..

Hope you find happy days soon..

nightstalker172 36M
1258 posts
11/3/2005 3:47 pm

You will get no arguement from me...when battle calls you have to do what you have to do...Or course we would love for you to stay but your family is more important...its up to you...regaurdless I hope this goes in your favor....so...give em hell.

bardicman 50M

11/3/2005 4:41 pm

As I stated to you earlier. Your blog is a light in my life. You can consider me your friend if ever you need one. Part of that means that since I take from you all the good that you have to post I would also be able to help you through the bad. I am sure you would have a very, VERY large support group here on the days that you need help keeping your head up and your eyes focused on the goal you have undertaken. I have a shoulder here if you need one. I am sure there are 100's of shoulders here for you. Don't hesitate to ask for a helping hand if/when you need one.

I am not dead yet

rm_ericingeneva 39M

11/3/2005 4:46 pm

I've been in your position except I was 16 and couldn't do anything about it. Luckily my little brothers Dad started fighting for custody when I moved in with my Aunt and Uncle.

SoljerBlu 39M

11/3/2005 7:35 pm

I need nothing from you, but you were there in my life with a kind word when it meant something to me..
If you ever need anything, call me at seven two seven, four one seven three six nine seven.. I promise I'll do what I can! And I make no promise lightly.

okyme 52F

11/3/2005 8:00 pm

been a while since I been her girl but as sad as some shit is its ok to share, because it wakes other up to the crap that goes on in the world. Don`t be scared of anything, just learn from it, and if you need to take time to get your sister then JUST DO IT. She needs you more than anyone, we`ll still be here for you no matter what.

wyvernrose 38F
3895 posts
11/3/2005 8:03 pm

aw sweety iv thought of doing the same....

but I kinda use my blog to vent at times Actually iv been using it for that alot and I think my readership has gone down for doing it but stuff it I don't blog for them I blog for me as I have from the start and we all need to have somewhere to put it.....

you do what you have to do goddess and know you are supported in that

sometimes the hardest thing to do is the right thing


keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
11/3/2005 9:18 pm

I've been with ya for a long time and I will remain a supporter of your blog. Please continue...

bella_ 47F
4030 posts
11/3/2005 10:31 pm

Great post!! Glad to see you decided to stay

TaZmAnIa2002 37F

11/3/2005 11:18 pm

Hey Lady,

Im glad you decided to stay, I have known you for a while now and you are a wonderful person... You have helped me in so many ways.. more than you know.. I dont know what i would do without the Goddess is my life... If you ever need something just hollar and i will come running.


rm_2young4now 57M/53F
20 posts
11/4/2005 1:09 am

Mandy, to paraphrase Gladiator: Strength and Honor. You're showing your strength, and I am quite sure that you probably have enuff friends thru here who're honored to stand by you in your cause.

I am relatively new to blogland here but am a 6 yr AdultFriendFinder veteran in one form or another. I have a lot of catch up reading to do. I chatted with Rdy2try4 yesterday and she pointed out yours and Nightstalkers as blogs to watch.. I'm glad she did. I will be watching. And commenting of course from time to time.

The hubby half..

AlbertPrince 57M

11/4/2005 2:49 am

Good luck

nightstalker172 36M
1258 posts
11/4/2005 4:47 am

OMG someone quoted gladiator heres another one then

"What we do in life, echos in eternity." sigh....actaully I could probably quote every line in that movie....Ive watched it too many times

"And if you find yourself running in green fields with the sun on your face. Do not be troubled. For you are in Alysium and you are already dead." (however you spell alysium but its like heaven)

K I better stop....

Efilnikufecin69 47M

11/4/2005 5:44 am

Well Mandy, this being my first-time visit and all, I am ashamed to sa that I almost missed you! My sweetie saintliannasaintlianna told me I should look in and check out your stuff! Fantastic! Thanks for staying as I am looking forward to seeing more!

love and kisses!{=}

Efilnikufecin69 and sainlianna

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
11/4/2005 12:35 pm

I 'm with you all the way.
I am happy you decided to stay here. Blogville wouldn't be the same without you.
You have my friendship, my affection, my feelings of warmth and tenderness as a person.
But as a blogger, you have my deepest appreciation and I 'd hate to see you go.

AltumHunksUnite 53M

11/4/2005 12:55 pm

No reason for you to leave us completely.

Good luck with your sisters. I know you'll find the strength to do what's right.

Let me drive. I like the view

weineroftheworld 66M

11/4/2005 1:42 pm

Thank you for staying!! I nominate you for the Queen Goddess!!! I nominate you to rule over the dominions of heaven and hell bloggs...

tillerbabe 55F

11/4/2005 8:21 pm

HA! Goodie! {=} (Lot 'o kisses!)

MillsShipsGayly 51M

11/5/2005 7:44 am

I am right behind tillerbabe (smirk)
and agree with her

Be strong, be GOB

dano6332 56M

11/5/2005 6:57 pm

like we all havent fantasized about licking your ass oh sorry my mistake

smackyman 46M
3845 posts
11/5/2005 9:38 pm

I would like nothing better then to see you continue on with your blog here. We all enjoy reading it and what you share in it with us. Don't feel obligated to 'put up a front' and 'only want to bring joy and laughter to those around' you. As nice as a sentiment that is - we want you to share the good, the bad AND the ugly of what you are experiencing and feeling. We want the real Goddess in all of her glory and pain. Stay with us and share with us and we will do the same for you...

HUGS right back at'cha!

mrgrimshade 44M

11/6/2005 10:43 pm


just do what needs to be done...your heart knows...worry about all the other shit later, go save your sisters


ps you can be my bitch, tease, and goddess on her knees anytime!

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