I'm going to say GOODBYE  

goddessofbitches 41M/33F
5317 posts
7/23/2005 8:18 am

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I'm going to say GOODBYE

I am not in a good mood today. I feel kinda mad at myself and at the way I have been acting. It's just, I matured so early and settled down so soon in my life that I never was a teenager. I never had the chance to get out there...and have no responsibilities. So I wrote this...It's not that good, since I did it at 2 am this morning. But, I have nothing else to talk about and I am not in a good mood.

I'm saying goodbye to that little girl,
The one inside me that I no longer feel,
The one that used to say,
On the playstation we must play,
Now I am a woman, a mom and a wife,
No room for parties or playtime in my life,
Saying goodbye to those wild party nights,
Replacing with many internal fights,
I no longer get out and feel free,
For I have no one to watch kids or go with me,
So I am saying goodbye to a teenage mind,
The strength to do so I must find.

HUGS~~~MANDY


Always The Bitch


rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
7/23/2005 10:43 am

No! ... seriously you must be able to find a babysitter somewhere? ... you will go out of your mind if you are permanently just stuck with the kids! and you need to hang onto that little girl -- at least a bit, just to make sure you understand your own children ...



[blog freelove999]


CuteAZguy27 39M
1545 posts
7/23/2005 11:52 am

*Takes a deep breath* "Oh phew- I thought you were another blogger was leaving blogland when i read your subtitle."

agrees with [blog FreeLove999] get your hubby to take you out for dinner or a movie- a time to get away from the home-be with him alone (away from the house) and be silly.

A question though ? How is your foot and toe healing ? Did you end up getting crutches or anything ?

-CuteAZguy27


goddessofbitches 41M/33F

7/23/2005 3:49 pm

Freelove--- Money has been tight lately so paying for one is not an option. We moved to this crappy little college town and it has been hell since we got here. The only family we have here is my mother, and regretfully, she has not been as much help as she said she would be. Therefore....I spend sometimes weeks at a time with the kids before getting out. I hate it, and I feel just like a prisoner. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids...but the daily fuss with a 3 yr old and 11 month old gets rough and exhausting.

CuteGuy--- No, I am not leaving BLOG LAND yet. I have thought about it since I have had a hard time getting online for long periods of time to take care of my blog and respond to those of whom leave a comment or email me a question. As for getting my hubby to take me out...that can't happen unless someone wants to spend time with my kids. As for my foot, the right ankle has healed very nicely, but my left foot is bruised pretty badly and still hurts. No, I didn't get crutches...because the E.R. doctor thinks I don't need them. She did give me an Bandage to put on it though

HUGS~~~MANDY

Always The Bitch


keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
7/24/2005 4:34 am

Nice post even if it was late at night. Opportunities will open up for you guys. Take em when they appear.


rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
7/24/2005 11:37 am

Well, Mandy, do hope you are at least getting out to the park with the kids (or other kid places) and meeting other mums so you can maybe do a babysit swap??? Of course I know you love your kids, but of course it is rough and exhausting --- I have one toddler and a 5 day a week nanny and I still find it difficult to manage sometimes (like today when she was trying on that pitiful moaning habit she has developed!). Please, for your own sanity and your kids you and your husband should prioritise solving this problem! (Yeah, slap me -- I know I'm too bossy!)



[blog freelove999]


goddessofbitches 41M/33F

7/24/2005 3:24 pm

Keith--- Thank you and I will try.

Freelove--- I don't feel that you are being bossy. I think that you are more or less trying to help me. Lately, it has been harder to go to those kiddy places because we have been done to only one vehicle. I am trying though...

HUGS~~~MANDY

Always The Bitch


DukeAbbaddon 41M
280 posts
7/25/2005 12:48 am

yes your older But if you forget who you are to replace it with an old woman which your not i wont forgive you !
I the master say live long and prosper .. to say be young of heart!
ever stated to yourself i know im better that that young person i know more ! ( grin ) its nateral every one thinks if im onder i am wiser but life is a chalenge most meat well !

play with that new playstation and nintendo ! i have a nintendo box eternal darkness is the best ! and hard


goddessofbitches 41M/33F

7/28/2005 8:20 pm

Duke...thanks for the pick me up...I feel much better now...
MANDY

Always The Bitch


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