For Anyone who has been a Victim PT 3  

goddessofbitches 41M/33F
5317 posts
8/29/2006 9:42 pm

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For Anyone who has been a Victim PT 3

To really understand this, please read parts 1 and 2.

By the time my 16th birthday hit, my mom was planning to leave my dad. It was a great thing in my eyes. All these years my dad was doing drugs, he was also abusing me, and most importantly, abusing her. I knew that if I told on him, he would go to jail, and my mom would have a hard time making at living. At this point, she not only suffered from a muscle condition that caused her to leave her job at the hospital, but she had taken the test for a CDL. AT this point, she decided she wanted to be a bus driver for the school system.
That said, it should be known that bus drivers don't make a whole lot.

Here I am, suffering everyday, dealing with my pain in ways that I admit, were very self destructive.

Instead of hating men, I found comfort in their "love" otherwise known as "Lust" for me. I used them for all I could. Such as buying me things, getting car rides, and getting me drunk. I never did drugs, but I did get drunk whenever I could. I would sneak out of my house and drink. Lucky for me, I never really got hang-overs. Another thing I was lucky for...I got away with not having to "pay" those men back. I would make excuses so I wouldn't have to sleep with them. It was great.

By May 12, 2000 my plan went into action. The plan was for my mom to see what kind of monster my dad was by writing out a list of things he has done to HER over the years. I had to be careful because she has filed for divorce before, without me knowing it, and later taken him back. So, I made sure that every-time they got into an argument of some kind, to write it down. This list included dates and what happened on those dates. For instance, April 6 2000, my mom was up late when my dad hit her for no reason. Feb 10, 1998...my dad accused my mom of sleeping around, which caused them to fist fight for hours. My mom was never afraid of my dad. This list allowed my mom to see that she didn't need to be with my dad.

She filed for divorce shortly before their 16th wedding anniversary in June of 2000. She actually had them served to him on their anniversary. I stayed with my sisters at a friends house until she called with the ok for me to bring them home.

Finally I had gotten him out of the house, but, that wasn't the end of it. She had filed before, and taken him back. This time, I had to make sure that HE DIDN'T come back....

HUGS~~~MANDY


Always The Bitch


keithcancook 60M
17718 posts
8/29/2006 10:32 pm

Jeeze, what a mess...


nightstalker172 36M
1258 posts
8/29/2006 11:18 pm

Guys like this have no mercy and should recieve none they do not deserve so share air with us on this planet...


redlipsprincess
(Princess Lips)
51F

8/30/2006 12:49 am

*hugs*

TTFN


deliciousngood 64F
1665 posts
8/30/2006 7:01 am

(((((((((((((mandy)))))))))))))

What a strong smart girl you were....no one could take that from you!


lifeisablast333 53M

8/30/2006 8:50 am

Sorry about the crap you went through, but look how cool you are now.
When I was a police officer, I loved to arrest guys who smack thier wives and kids, My old man was a real piece of work, and a head shrink would call it "projection"....but naaaa.....I'm just a simple redneck, and some dudes just need throwed down and cuffed...lol..the Redneck[image]


norprin5 55M

8/30/2006 10:07 am

big tight hugs for you, Mandy...

mike

King Nor XVIII


JuicyBBW1001 54F

8/30/2006 1:53 pm

Aww Mandy I am sooo soo sorry you endured all that hell. But you know your pain has brought you to wisdom beyond your years. I always knew that you where wise beyond your years and now I understand why. ((((Huggs)))

Juicy

Juicy


elysianpleasure 47M

8/30/2006 6:56 pm

You are a strong women...


popmuse01 35F

8/30/2006 9:45 pm

ooh a calculating mind to rid your family of evil! *HUGS* Good for you! The most logical solution to the problem!

I'm leaving the site end of March. To those who want to keep in touch, see blog for details.


rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
8/30/2006 11:36 pm

I am sure that your Dad pleaded lots to get your Mom back whenever he could. It probably wasn't because he truly loved her but, instead, loved exercising the power and control over her and the fear of losing the person he could exert that power and control over. Whether or not your Mom realized it at the time, you did her a favor by writing down the fights. Sometimes, a visual of the amount of fighting actually done is better than a fading memory who lives in a surreal environment waiting for things to get better. Amazing, Mandy, for your strength. Question though: Did you ever get to be a child??? Just curious...


goddessofbitches 41M/33F

8/31/2006 8:01 am

Thanks for the comments guys. I really appreciate the support right now. I am finally dealing with the underlying issues. It has taken me 6 years, but I am finally coping.

Tx Rose--- I don't honestly think I was ever a child. I think I went from Toddler to Child for about 2 years to woman overnight.

HUGS~~~MANDY

Always The Bitch


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