Why, why, why am I doing this?!!  

girltech47 59F
552 posts
10/3/2005 8:29 am

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Why, why, why am I doing this?!!

OK, here's the deal. For the past couple of weeks (months actually) I've been on an emotional rollercoaster; that is until today because today I feel nothing. The man of my desires has jerked me around, up one side, and down the other. What's worse is that I let him. I kept going back for more. Why did I do this? I have no idea. It's not like there aren't plenty of men on here vying for my attention. Will I do it again? God, I hope not. But if he asks I probably will.

Sometimes this makes me feel like the biggest LOSER there is. I have never gone through anything like this. I have never ALLOWED anyone to treat me this way. So why am I now?


snooker96692 53M

10/3/2005 7:07 pm

Okay, it may not be the answer you want to hear, but it may be a lack of respect for yourself. Perhaps you feel you are not good enough for him, you are at a low period of your life, you are lonely, or want friendship. In any case it is not worth degrading yourself for this man or any man. Sure, we all shit on each other from time to time because we are either immature, mad, jealous, or unkind. Is it right? No, and this should not be part of a regular pattern. Sweetheart, tell him to stop the crap, period, and if not sever all ties and move on. The fact that you have a number one loser ribbon showing tells me you need more confidence in yourself. Everyone has a bad day, just don't make it a habit. I hope this helps dear.

snooker96692 53M

10/4/2005 3:27 pm

Okay, you asked the question, but then deleted my answer. At least you got rid of the loser ribbon. I hope my comments, as honest and articulate as they were, provided you with some direction. Remember, don't ask the question if you do not want to hear the answer.

pierd 51M
222 posts
10/5/2005 9:28 pm

Answer: 'cuase you are/were trully 'in love', perhaps for the fisrt time in your life. And, as the song goes, "love hurts".

I guess that is why 'being in love' and 'loving' are two diffferent things (I believe). The first is a potentially self destroying infatuation, similar to hero worship. The second is a nourishing commitment involving mutual respsct. There is a reason why marriage vows in all languages and cultures (as far as I know) speak of "to love you till...", and not "to be in love with you till..."

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chas4037 67M
4119 posts
10/6/2005 2:15 pm

I'll take a somewhat diffrent tack on this, not to say anyone else is wrong. There are always many sides to an issue. You aksed "why did I let him treat me like this?"; well I don't know you, Girltech, but in general, we are with people because they serve SOME need we're not getting met elsewhere. SO, for you, besides your need to feel crappy about yourself (a joke) what need was he filling? Even more, who else or how else could you have met that need?

Yep, unrequited love hurts. And yep, IF he was so darn good when he was good, you'd likely go back. But I hope instead you'll try to figure out what need you were way low on. And I hope it wasn't simply orgasisms and skin contact; that is easier to fill than many others.

Hope that there was a tiny bit of value in this.

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