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I walk through the days,lost in moments.
My thoughts and dreams illusions before my eyes It is as if there is a fog around me and everything I see and do is being played out at a distance.
I have somehow become detached from myself and from outside watch, with pity, what is happening.
Today is just begining and with hope that the rising sun will undo this nightmare I seem to have fallen into. When did this begin, how did this happen?
We are a strange lot we humans , faced with adversity we each "deal" with it differantly. Lately I have trouble remembering what I have told those close to me, those who know what is happening with me and this troubles me. My mind is clear for everything but what is the foremost reason I need it to be clear on.
Pity, I hate pity, especially of the self kind, OUT DAMN SPOT! BE GONE DEMON! Spirit rise up and sweep from my soul that which weighs me down.
Dark the mood and enlightenment the coming day, seek here and now to find peace within.
Those I trust and love can not be allowed to see this struggle going on within and must never know how desperately I fight each day to meet small goals.
I may as well be a dog chasing his tail for it is in circles I go looking for the unattainable. Ask and yea shall recieve or so it is said, and so I shall ask, if the spirits answer I hope it is not to suttle for of late I am somewhat hard of hearing, so speak up.