Just another day in Pradise  

gentelmanjim53 63M
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10/28/2005 1:36 am

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Just another day in Pradise


The last post here was of an evening of pleasure and peace for me. Short lived though it was, as within an hour of that said post the computer crashed and the modem died. Five days of cyber hell and no way to vent feelings or communicate with friends and family.
I like gouda cheese with my whine thank you. I hope this year ends soon and the next brings something better for I weary of this drama and distress.
Blog friends have tales that make mine pale and am ashamed to feel sorry for myself when I have little to whine about. I am healthy, have a job I love and good people around me. What more of this life can one ask? Here in lies the question, why can't I have what I would like, I am willing to work for it, feel I have earned it over the years by not being one of those greedy shmucks who dumps on anyone to get ahead and then gloats about how good he is.
Mr. nice guy, that has almost always been me. Though recently I have been a hard ass because I have become tired of being taken advantage of because I put my trust in the wrong people or given them to many chances to screw with me.
I maintain hope to everyone I come in contact with for to show this side of me would drag me down to somewhere I would not be able to come back from and I know it. The rainbow is there just out of reach, within grasp if I just try a little harder and I know I can.
Hope is the fuel that keeps me in the game and working to find what it is I need to fulfill my desires and dreams. Were I able I would do for those in need, but we all have needs of some sort, were it within my power I would heal the ills of the world, this seems impossible but with enough people all believeing it can happen and focusing all of their positive energy to the ills of the world it would change, I really believe this.
There is little that can be kept from us if we stay positive in the face of challenge, have hope and faith that all will be well if we continue to try, care for those who have lost hope and try to give them some hope that tomorrow will be better.
The last five years have been a series of bad to worse situations and yet I look forward to each day with hope. It will not last forever for I will not let it, today is the begining of that end and new hope will find the new day at dawn.

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