In the night time hours  

gentelmanjim53 63M
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9/8/2005 3:06 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

In the night time hours

My sleep lately has been four to six hours at best. I feel rested most of the time and spend the hours here, draining the demons and stress, trying to make peace within.
This journal was started as a means of emptying out the mental clutter as I physically removed the clutter from my fathers house. The day to day routines of personal care, meals, work and just going about living, took on different dimensions in May of this year. My Father fell ill and is now in the recovery and rehab stages. His eventual return home is dependant on this place being clean and able to suport a wheelchair bound man. There will have to be some outside care but for the most part his care will be mine to provide.
This is not something that I dwell on or even wory about, at least not that I am aware of, it is just a fact that is the logical conclusion of who is near and capible of doing the job.
This blog is also where I fight with myself, hide from my own fears, come out and face my demons, leave my stress and bear my soul. Thankfully few people read this and even fewer comment, though comments are welcome. It is doubtful anyone who has not dealt with this or a similar situation would or could comment on most of what is here.
Some of what is here are rantings at the world but most deal with the every day things that have become life.
I came to this site in search of friends and have made some interesting discoveries in the process. One is that no matter where you go if you look you will find good people, two the majority don't give a rip, which is OK and three those that do tend to be the kind of people we would gravitate to anyhow.
The only misfortune in this is that it is distant and removed from the true social interaction we all need. This may be remedied after an upcoming get together where I will have the chance to meet some of those with whom I have been communicating.
Forward always forward, to look back and question defeats what oppurtunities may lie ahead because unless you trip over them you are unlikely to see them. Forward into the coming day.


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