CLOWN WITHOUT A CIRCUS  

funintheday2006 56M
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6/24/2006 10:47 pm

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CLOWN WITHOUT A CIRCUS

Well its official, I’m a clown without a circus. So sayeth her of the long legs.
Got home Friday ( a few minutes late of course!) and immediately after the usual greeting her eyes commenced to flash their fever.
As always, the sight of her lifts me and I relax in her being there, it’s a very comfortable feeling.
I was then subjected to ‘a few home truths’ which, as they were accurate were pretty well taken as read.
Now when someone asks you a question, you answer it as fully as you can and they follow up with “And what?” in order that you have to analyse, discussions become a back foot affair. Analysis is then given the “And what?” treatment and after a couple of goes at that you have nowhere to go, its impossible. So, discussion is lost. Tried “And don’t answer with “And what” and was asked why. I explained the above and the reply was “And what?”
You getting the drift here? Without doubt, KGB trained for interrogating westerners.
What did not assist at all was the fact that the house had been brought up to clinically clean and tidy standards, obviously a subliminal criticism, and she was wearing nothing except one of my T shirts so my attention span was somewhat limited.
That and a cooked meal with a bottle of Faustino 1 (1984) on the table had me at a real disadvantage.
She now has her UK passport, works for HM Gov and, apparently, managed to do all this without the need to marry an Englishman. Another subliminal criticism there methinks.
So, I am castigated, driven to my knees, metaphorically hung drawn and quartered, have my character and opinions on life and love dissected to the n’th degree, am seriously considering the best way to end this worthless existence and she throws in “I still get beautiful shivers down my back every time you touch me.” And it’s said as an addition to a criticism.
She really is absolutely impossible.
I try to lighten the mood with crass humour to be informed that if she ever conducts auditions for a stand up comedian, I’ll be the first to know, in the meantime……

I’m not too sure where this discussion is going but, we are going somewhere today, haven’t been told where yet(!) and all will be revealed.
Having lived together previously for some considerable (for me) time I am looking forward with some trepidation! The ridiculous thing is, I’m enjoying it too, at some masochistic level.

What I do know is, having her in the house always makes me feel good and she has an ability to make me feel like her knight in shining armour whilst, at the same time, ensuring that she knows me inside out and bullshit and avoidance will not be tolerated.

Now I’ve been knocking myself out wondering what the visit is really about and how I will react to certain scenarios and have absolutely no idea!!

I think it’s a ‘lets carry on where we left off’ visit but, I have to be wrong there because it was she who was not happy with the previous state of affairs and decided to study in the UK.

I know, I know, I’m rambling. Give you an update later tomorrow…..

Have fun


ArgosPlumyKooky 45F
3902 posts
6/24/2006 11:39 pm

lol, this is pretty good! rings familairity


funintheday2006 56M
9659 posts
6/24/2006 11:56 pm

Good? Oh, snatchy, only from the outside, believe me!! Familiarity? You do this kinda thing to men too? Thts naughty


wishinNhoping 64F
527 posts
6/25/2006 7:51 am

Oh my gawd, whats happened to you while I've been away.
You sound in quite a quandary. You gotta take some control over your like back, or are you secretly enjoying this !!!.

Of course it makes you feel good having her in the house. We all feel good if we think someone wants and needs us but at the expense of giving our lives over, ooohhh, me thinks not!!
Have you actually asked her what she wants.
People are usually ex's for a reason (food for thought). Dont't think you can ever "carry on where you left off", there's usually too much water under the bridge.

Right, thats me off me soap box now!!
Please take care hun
P xxx


maverick1255 51M
3953 posts
6/25/2006 1:13 pm

GO GET'IM WishNHope!!! You explain it!!!

Well, if you were worried about working too much, I don't see that being a problem now. Because if you are, to her thinking, she will take care of THAT!!!

( handing you the scissors, so that you can put your BALLS in a jar. On the shelf!!! )

Mav, the American Arse


funintheday2006 56M
9659 posts
6/25/2006 9:12 pm

    Quoting wishinNhoping:
    Oh my gawd, whats happened to you while I've been away.
    You sound in quite a quandary. You gotta take some control over your like back, or are you secretly enjoying this !!!.

    Of course it makes you feel good having her in the house. We all feel good if we think someone wants and needs us but at the expense of giving our lives over, ooohhh, me thinks not!!
    Have you actually asked her what she wants.
    People are usually ex's for a reason (food for thought). Dont't think you can ever "carry on where you left off", there's usually too much water under the bridge.

    Right, thats me off me soap box now!!
    Please take care hun
    P xxx
You see, you bugger off to Bermuda, leaving us all to our own devices and the shit hits the fan. You feel guilty now?
Hands up, Yes I do enjoy it when someone else has the bottle and character to take control occasionally! On saying that, I can take it back when it suits me! She is not really an ex, our relationship has continued after I made some statements that lead to her going another route. Nice soapbox, you should keep it handy! Hope you had a great hol babe


funintheday2006 56M
9659 posts
6/25/2006 9:15 pm

    Quoting maverick1255:
    GO GET'IM WishNHope!!! You explain it!!!

    Well, if you were worried about working too much, I don't see that being a problem now. Because if you are, to her thinking, she will take care of THAT!!!

    ( handing you the scissors, so that you can put your BALLS in a jar. On the shelf!!! )

    Mav, the American Arse
Y'know you started this dont you, you pillow kissing arse? I am watching you very carefully, I WILL get my own back....


maverick1255 51M
3953 posts
6/25/2006 9:32 pm

    Quoting funintheday2006:
    Y'know you started this dont you, you pillow kissing arse? I am watching you very carefully, I WILL get my own back....
Ok, we will have to see!!


funintheday2006 56M
9659 posts
6/25/2006 9:44 pm

WE WILL SEE??? It aint me that replies to bots telling em to get in touch! You are vulnerable, Ill get ya


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