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Wanting - not needing
Wanting - not needing
So anyway I got bored of that last theme, and if I carried on with it I would've just been cos I liked the thought of other people reading & (hopefully) enjoying my blog. But, to misquote Superintendant Chalmers (Simpsons reference, for the uninitiated), this ain't a goddamned popularity contest... No doubt I'll be back to writing porn soon (probably in about 10 minutes, if I can just have some fuckin' space) but I just want to start writing about something, anything, so that I can feel like part of the AdultFriendFinder community again.
I've said it before and I'll say it again: The odds of meeting someone on here - and I'm talking about me here, in my particular circumstances, rather than the population in general - are virually zip. In fact, even if I weren't fuckin' trapped, I still wouldn't be getting my hopes up above about half mast right now. And not for any specific reason, like having a massive hump (not that I have anything against the spinally challenged, y'understand) or a 2" dick (again, no offence to anyone out there who's measuring in millimetres, but I've always prided myself in being able to deliver both quantity and quality) or bright red hair (um, well, actually...). It's just that I've been thinking about the possibility that I'll have to come to terms with being on my own for the foreseeable future.
Which - and here's the interesting part (for me at least) - is okay. I mean, developing forearms like Arnie in front of late night phone sex adverts ain't exactly my idea of a fulfilling relationship, but from an emotional point of view it's a good place to be. No Mr. Needy-Insecure here - in fact, if I ever meet that guy, I'm gonna take him to the fuckin' cleaners...
When I registered on AdultFriendFinder and went about seeking what I believe is termed 'discreet companionship', it wasn't with an emotionally fulfilling relationship in mind (actually, I don't think my mind had much to do with it); it was more along the lines of hoping there was a woman out there with similar desires to mine, perhaps in a similar situation, and that she might like to indulge in a little teasing, flirting, and eventually (please god) good, hard fucking. And a large part of that is still true: I'd love a little e-flirting, never mind a chance to meet up with some sexy babe who I can drive crazy with my tongue. But what I know for sure is that I'm not desperate.
Just horny, baby!
Now, where was I? Ah, yes - first time I tried anal sex...