Karma  

frogger1995 39F
4342 posts
8/29/2005 7:23 pm

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Karma


I am a firm believer in karma, which is another way of saying that I am a worrier. I worry about everything...in fact I worry about not being worried about something.

That being the case, I should have known that everything I've done in the past month would catch up with me. Today I got the results of the tests I took two weeks ago in a state of panic from some germ I caught from one of the students at school. Everything was of course alright, which I knew in the back of my mind.

But I couldn't help but think that one of these days I may not be so lucky. Although I practice the safest type of sex possible, every tingle, itch or ache I feel sends my mind into a frenzy.

With all that I have done, how could karma not bite me in the butt. I have already reached the average number of partners for women in America. I sleep with married men. I skip my responsibilities at work in order to sneak off and play on this site. I get an extreme surge of pride (one of the seven deadly sins) from joining people to my network so they can see my photos. I should be Catholic with the amount of guilt I feel from all of this.

My friend at work, as well as my ex, said I should either stop worrying or leave this site...but it is hard. Does any other member who has had more than one partner feel this way?

jrtwn 48
12 posts
8/29/2005 9:23 pm

I'll have to say that I have had some guilt, but not that much. I have quite a few GREAT memories and hopefully will have more! One word...condoms.


jrtwn 48
12 posts
8/29/2005 9:25 pm

p.s. Nice breasts! Send me a message or IM


rm_Irishlad442 56M

8/29/2005 9:32 pm

Let us see here! You are a bright, intelligent educated young woman who has taken every precaution in the book. You haven't had SEX with men who solicit hookers or use IV drugs. So why don't you just ENJOY your experiences and the memories that you have made. Enjoy the lingering memories of passion and all of the growing that you have done as a woman. Give yourself a break and look at the positives. You have nothing to feel guilty about. All of your experiences have been with consenting partners and I have never known you to be deceptive with anyone. So give up on the worrying and guilt, they only cause premature aging and you are much too pretty to ruin that.


the1forthenight 33M
55 posts
8/29/2005 10:29 pm

Whats up frogger, its been a few days.Why should you feel guilty about anything you have done. You are safe about what you do so that should not worry you. You didn't put a gun to any man's head that you have met on this site and made them do anything. As long as you know in your heart that this is what you love to do and you take the precautions to be safe, then there is nothing to worry about.


WildWon1982 34M

8/29/2005 11:35 pm

I believe in karma in the sense that I believe people should get what they deserve. However, sex is not a sin (no matter what idiot clergy say). If you believe in karma, you should also hold the Hindu belief that sexuality is a form of transcendence, something to be celebrated, not lamented. That's why they wrote the Kama Sutra. You have done nothing wrong, so you should fear no repurcussions. You stay safe, and are responsible (even if you shirk some work responsibilities). I wouldn't worry, except for perhaps the sleeping with married men part. If you feel that marital infidelity is wrong, then you might want to consider atonement, but also bear in mind that you are not married (I assume). The one at fault is the married man for straying from his wife.


frogger1995 39F

8/30/2005 5:04 am

Thanks for all the comments. I am currently over my spat of paranoia. Checked myself once again last night and once again all is clear. Perhaps after a little break I will be back on track.


rm_bigmike9994 46M

8/30/2005 12:02 pm

Frogger are u at liberty to say what you had caught...did u fool around with the student or it was something u just caught from being around this person. today there is some many virus out there that everyone needs to be careful..wash your hands, clean cloths and house...germs are everwhere...u be careful frogger cause if u et me..i just might make my trip to Houston..lol...thats is if u want me too


rm_bigmike9994 46M

8/30/2005 12:02 pm

Frogger are u at liberty to say what you had caught...did u fool around with the student or it was something u just caught from being around this person. today there is some many virus out there that everyone needs to be careful..wash your hands, clean cloths and house...germs are everwhere...u be careful frogger cause if u let me..i just might make my trip to Houston..lol...thats is if u want me too


frogger1995 39F

8/30/2005 3:27 pm

Goodness! I need to STOP mentioning school and students. I did NOT sleep with a student. It was something I (and four of my coworkers) caught via the air or touching a doorknob or something.


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