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Is it all really about fucking? I mean seriously, isn't it really about attention (and sex is just a byproduct)?
I go through blogs here and there and I find that many people just want to feel good about themselves. Insecurites are seeping into their minds and they want attention to make them feel a little better. I can understand that because I'm like that my damn self. I'm starting to wonder what percentage is just about pure sex for me. I mean, I've got a damn good sex drive but how much is driven by emotions?
For the longest I liked having sex like a madman (Don't get me wrong, my drive is still good). A couple of years ago I did a lot of inner searching and I found out it was because I needed it to feel attractive, since my childhood consisted of so much ridicule. Sex was something that proved to me that I wasn't ugly anymore, ya know? I mean, a girl won't sleep with a guy they completely can't look at, ya know? Especially some of the great girls I've met throughout the years. Now, I think I've overcome that. I feel better about myself and I'm much more confident, especially since I've experienced so much that has been the opposite of when I was a kid. In fact, I've been a bit grateful for those hard times because it's helped me keep my head from floating up in the clouds... not completely grateful but enough to bring me a little peace.
Anyway, it still leaves me to wonder, how many people are needing that kind of attention, emotional attention that's affiliated with sex? Maybe it's just that we all have our ghosts we have to conquer and sex is the fix needed to alleviate them. I don't think it'll permanently fix anything but hey, sex is fun any-fuckin-wayz.