Thoughts from a tortured mind.  

flagg134 36M
1430 posts
7/11/2006 2:46 pm

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Thoughts from a tortured mind.

I am but a simple man
making choices without a plan
what to do I often ponder
while in different directions I wander

Journeying to many different places
I've come across a million different faces
judgemental of them I'll not be
Through their eyes I cannot see

Can't deal with seeing a friend in need
So I answer whenever they plead
Not the same when I wear that shoe
I loathe asking when I feel blue

Others problems I quickly solve
While mine just seem to evolve
To myself I must teach
One should practice what they preach

Always been a quick learner
Yet my education lies on the back burner
Its quite the shame a brain
Is one muscle everyone should train

Maturity I show beyond my peers
even some ahead in years
Observant and wanting to know
Curiosity will lend its death blow

Searching through this land of steel and stone
Surrounded by millions and yet all alone
A smirk crosses my face and brings a dimple
realizing that I'm not quite that simple.

RF (7-11-06)

real36CgirlPA 38F

7/11/2006 5:14 pm

Is that your cat?
(You had to know I wasn't going to say anything intelligent.heheh)

curvymeli 39F

7/11/2006 5:19 pm

Aww, I love it.

Rudy1166 50M
136 posts
7/11/2006 6:36 pm

Yeah, I know what that feels like. Though I don't feel tortured, now that I'm just about over my marriage and divorce.
Maybe one has to get married badly then divorced in order to appreciate singlehood.
I find that when you accept yourself as is, you'll be happier.
When you're truly happy, your less likely to do the things that you don't like in yourself.
For example, a truly happy person won't find the need to excessively drink on more then a rare occasion. He won't hate himself for having an occasional boozy evening with friends and family, nor will he hate himself to the point where he does it regularly.
You can fill in the blank for any of our shortcomings and eccentricities in the example above.

In short, self love and acceptance ( I don't necessarily mean jacking off, though that don't hurt either.) is the heart of happiness. You can't find happiness in someone else. You'll only drain them. That's being selfish.( You knew that anyway.)

Once you're truly happy, you can share that with someone else.

Hope I made sense.
Now go pet your pussy and relax your mind. And accept yourself.


themisskrissy 56F
2302 posts
7/11/2006 9:24 pm

i very much enjoyed reading this sweetie.. thanks for sharing it!!

Virtue Alone Ennobles

flagg134 36M
1582 posts
7/12/2006 5:34 pm

Ok so my artistic talent is lacking shoot me for trying.

Real36: Ummm not on this one but yes its my cat I'll try to get a better pic next time teh sunlight shaded that one poorly.

Meli: Nahhh I never have been able to write a poem in any capacity you could say this is one of the first ten I have written. This is by far the longest one.

Rudy: I'd be happier if I knew what I wanted that is part of the problem. I'm no drinker and I have few vices at all. The worst maybe light gambling in poker but thats generally profitable.

You are correct that I can't find happiness in others although companionship helps to deal with some hardships. I need to find something though that consistently brings a smile to my face.

Oh and getting laid yeah that'll be the day I'm doomed only women who are either too far away or otherwise unavailable attracted to me.

SSS: LOL Your welcome to use it I'm sure somebody has already if not they are welcome to it. Social work never really considered it I'm not much of a talker and besides I wouldn't even know how to get into that field.

TMK: Thanks Somehow I believe you but this isn't something I'm likely to try again.


rm_Blazenhot55 61F
3 posts
7/12/2006 9:07 pm

Excellent and very creative....makes one stop and think about the path they are headed on and where it will go next....

SensuousWoman3 55F
3106 posts
7/13/2006 7:35 am

That says it all.

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