My Mistress, the Night  

five_speed 41M
3250 posts
8/30/2005 9:47 pm

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My Mistress, the Night

The wind gusts through my window tonight. Each draft of fresh air is like a cool, damp kiss from the Night itself, and they make me smile.

I begin to think that perhaps I was wiser in my youth than I could have known. Fifteen years ago I thought that no mortal woman could hold my heart. No companion of flesh and bone could ever hope to reign in my primal impulses, the furious passion that seared me from the inside out. Only the Night, I thought, could ever understand me. Only the Night could be wilder than I, darker than I, more secretive and unknown than I, and I loved Her for being more than I was. But what a cold and impersonal mistress She could be.

I set out to prove myself wrong, to prove the Night wrong, for She swore I would be back, that I would not find what I sought among the lights and walls of my kind.

Fifteen years later, I tire of the search, and I find comfort again in the black, cool, soft embrace of my First Lover. She does not tease me or taunt me for my folly. She does not chant “I told you so.” She does not act particularly happy over my return to Her, either. Perhaps it is because She always knew I would be back.

She kisses me now, and caresses my skin with phantom fingers that once were never enough to satisfy me, but now are the only ones that know how to make my muscles release the stress and pain. I have missed Her affections.

Only in the dark can I see my way clearly. It is a lesson I have always known but chose to forget.

onelittlesecret 33M
1579 posts
8/31/2005 5:54 pm

I'm still quite familiar with her touch. lol

Thank God for the quiet Night.

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
8/31/2005 8:04 pm

Only in the Dark I can see my way clearly - I like that, night is my friend also.

five_speed 41M

8/31/2005 8:47 pm

saintlianna, I wrote that purposefully, hoping that people who understood the seemingly paradoxical statement would reply.

Thank you.

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
8/31/2005 10:20 pm

Your welcome, it is a good idea.

five_speed 41M

8/31/2005 10:39 pm

onelittlesecret, is there any other that touches like She does? I have not found another, nor do I expect to.

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