Must Vent A Little (Do Not Read Unless You Are Prepared For A Downer!)  

fingerlickin_69 42M
53 posts
6/28/2006 12:41 am

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Must Vent A Little (Do Not Read Unless You Are Prepared For A Downer!)

Okay, short version. I have been a member of this site for just a few months, and lately I have found it difficult to really get into the spirit of things. As my profile says, I'm a "government lawyer." Well, the full description of what I do is "county prosecutor." A few weeks ago, I got moved to a new unit in the office. I'm at the stage in my career where I am not doing any more courtroom work; rather I help review criminal cases at the time of the arrest to determine if we have enough evidence to file felony charges. I assist the police in their investigation, interview the witnesses, and interrogate the offenders.

Here's the kicker. My new assignment is a place where the only kinds of cases I review are allegations of sexual molestation against children. Nice way to spend a day at the office, eh? Don't worry, I will not be going into the gruesome details (mostly because I don't want some freak jacking off to it!)

While it is difficult enough to observe the children's interviews (through a 2-way mirror), the thing that has taken the most out of me are the interrogations. Our purpose is to try to get the offender to admit what he's done, and to do this we have to make a connection with him. Get personal. I have had to say and agree with things that make me choke! Like, "Yes, your daughter has a great ass. I don't blame you for wanting to do stuff to it." Blech!!! I spend vast amounts of energy trying to maintain a "civil" discussion, while at the same time resisting the urge to leap across the table and beat the living SHIT out of the guy!!!

Aside from that, I keep feeling a recurring sense of guilt when I come home from work, kick off my shoes, and surf this site looking for a sexual partner. On the one hand, it's always nice to know that my brain isn't so fucked up that anything at work actually turns me on. On the other, it's frustrating when I try to return to my own life, and find my leisure-time interest in sex is waning. I haven't jerked off in weeks, much less devoted any serious effort into meeting some of the great people on this site.

The only positive thing I can say is that this assignment is only supposed to last until September. After that, maybe I'll just have to sign up for an H-orgy to celebrate my return to the world of the sexually active. For those few who discounted my warning, I apologize. But as I see the variety of people on this site, and how much shallowness there can be, I find the only thing I can do is to put me out there...not part of me, but ALL of me. Sadly, right now this is a part of who I am. And I yearn for the day that I can say it was a part of who I was.

DanaeKC 43F
600 posts
6/28/2006 4:04 am

you poor bastard....... except you only have to hear about it. you don't have to live it (either from the truly abused's side, or the falsely accused's side).

speaking of, how often are the abused forced to finger somebody, anybody, to make it all go away, and get a case wrapped up?

fingerlickin_69 replies on 6/28/2006 10:08 pm:
As far as the first part of your comment, you are so right. It is difficult to keep things in perspective sometimes, and I should try to think more in terms of "it could be worse."

As far as the question, to quote the great Tool Time Tim: "Huh?"

cookiequeen1000 53F

6/28/2006 5:13 am

Thank you for helping kids who can't protect/defend themselves or punish their abusers. You're there for them. You (and the people you work with) are their blessing and salvation from unimaginable torment. It eats you up because you have morals, scrupples, a conscience, and a kind, loving heart (your Mommie must be very proud of you). For each perv that you help get off the street, there are countless people who will not be victimized by that individual. Your work may turn your stomach, but it has a greater good. You just can't see it with your head hanging in the proverbial toilet. Once you're done with this phase, you'll see it.

Sign me up for the H-orgy babe. I'll help you forget all about it. WEG

fingerlickin_69 replies on 6/28/2006 10:11 pm:
Thanks, cookie, although I usually can't tell my mom about what I do at work. She flips out any time I even suggest that I sat in a room for 3 hours with a I appreciate the sentiment, though!

fingerlickin_69 replies on 6/28/2006 10:15 pm:
And don't be thinkin' I'm going to forget you, come orgy time!

AtlanticSkyGirl 38F

6/29/2006 2:16 pm

I don't think Beating the Shit out of the guy is such a bad Idea!
I think they should all end up like Jeffrey Dalmer,Dead with a mop stuck up their ass!They have it coming.
I hate perverts who molest children.They should all get the death penalty.
Good luck with you're interogations
You're making the world a better place.
And you can Count Me in for the H orgy too!

fingerlickin_69 replies on 7/3/2006 10:08 am:
Great! Sounds like a plan, I just wonder if my office will reimburse me for using my personal mop? Have to check in to that...

So with you, me and cookie, do we really have an orgy yet? Or is it just a threesome? lol

Thanks for the comments!

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