The Indifferent Entry  

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6/2/2005 4:19 pm

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The Indifferent Entry

Where's that "indifferent" current mood option? That's exactly how I'm feeling right now with AdultFriendFinder. I've got to, despite what you might think given this is a bit of a sex site and you can get wound up, let down, upset, frustrated and all. Indifferent is the best way to handle it with some of its ridiculousness.

One thing that still makes me smile is how "rude" the people sometimes are when they get your picture and don't like it for some reason or another, in the middle of an on-line chat, and they just "go off-line" just like that. No "not interested" comments or anything. I'm not feeling sorry for myself or anything, and I know I don't look ugly or anything, even though beauty is in the eye of the beholder. I just don't live by the judgment of others. So what is it bugging me, you're probably asking? I guess I'm too much of a nice polite people kind of person to be doing such things to anybody so I'm still getting used to people doing that, but I'll probably never understand it since if I did, I might very well do it myself.

I wonder if any of these people have been people who knew me and suddenly realized it was me. It's a small city in the Halifax area. That'd be real funny, although it'd be real erotic if they found that out and suddenly find me to seduce me some time, knowing I've got this little wild side to me. I love fantasizing certain people I know, usually not well, having recognized me from when I had my photo up or when I've sent photos out, who might do that to me one day. I fantasize on certain people who are not only sexy in whatever ways, but also if certain people's profiles remind me of them in some way or another. It's a fantasy that has yet to grow old.

On the other end of the spectrum of these suddenly gonzo sort of on-line people are those who want to talk "forever" without meeting. You know, one thing you find out quickly being on here, is how lonely this North American world of ours is. Tons of people are just too dysfunctional and/or afraid to meet in person and be in control that if it doesn't work out, they can walk away and that'd be that. There are so many attached people who are either bored or aren't getting enough, but are too afraid to do anything but vent. Frankly, I don't need those sorts of people in my life, and unless they are true friends where we mean something to each other, I'm not going be that favour for them. At least when my friends do that to me, in their moments of need and I offer to listen because I care, we do it in person, not this on-line crap... and they do want me to listen since I have often helped them through and have built a reputation for being able to help them through. I should start charging money or something. LOL

But you know, I've always said the tragedy in these misses is not that I'm missing out, and not that they're missing out on a great guy cause I know what I can offer, but that there are two more people in the world missing out. But who cares, right? I'm indifferent.

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