Something that intrigues me!  

fancy_for_you 39F
3003 posts
6/2/2006 11:44 pm

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6/6/2006 5:33 pm

Something that intrigues me!


Yes there is something that intrigues me, so much so that I have been reading more and more about it. That thing is the BDSM lifestyle. At the suggestion of my friend OC I went and read the blog of Nightguy_1961. Let me tell ya between reading his blog and talking to OC and reading a couple sites that have been suggested to me I am not just intrigued but wishing for a beginners session with someone.

I have always thought I would be scared of the unknown and honestly I was taught that anything like this was wrong. Well, thanks to NG's blog and OC's openness to talking to me about this I now see I am not a misfit as I used to think. I see a whole world that I want to learn more and more about. NG's blog stories about past BDSM experiences had me breathing hard with the women in the stories and had my body reacting and tingling in ways I would normally be ashamed of. Though this time I am not ashamed. I feel like I am on the verge of an awakening experience that is what my dreams have been of.

I have never told anyone about the dreams I have because most would say I was crazy after what I have been through in my past. But I find myself dreaming those dreams more and more. It amazes me how I could be abused in my past yet still want this sensual yet demanding lifestyle. I am smart enough though to realize that what I have been through and what this lifestyle entails is totally different. One is done out of meanness and the other out of love and respect. One is done out of hate and the need to hurt someone the other out of again love and for the pleassure of all involved. And don't forget one is to install fear the other to gain trust.

To these wonderful men who have helped me learn through their posts I want to thank them. They are helping educate me by words before I take that step and beging my physical education. Through them I have learned not to just let anyone try to be my Dom/Domee but to first get to know them and trust them. Also that just cause someone says they are a Dom doesn't mean in real life they are. So I know now not to be nieve about finding someone. Though OC knows when I am ready for that first time he is who I would want to show me. I trust him completely already and as I have said before it seems natural to call him Sir.

Thank you both Sirs for the start to my education through your posts and through conversations with OC.

Fuzzy


~~Fuzzy~~


ThaRealLiv 43M

6/3/2006 12:24 am

You've probably made a big first step to setting an example to alot of women. Congrats to you and your friends.


fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
6/3/2006 4:26 am

ThaRealLiv,

Maybe this will be an example to some women. If they learn anything from my post is that no one should jump in blind. First above all else educate yourself. Then find someone you trust in that lifestyle to ask questions of or to guide you. Do NOT just jump in with anyone and think you will have a wonderful time. As I have been told by OC & NB and read in NG's blog.....this lifestyle is NOT for everyone but for those it is for it can be a wonderous and loving lifestyle.

If anyone has questions about BDSM lifestyle I would suggest they read Nightguy_1961 & my friend OC's blogs. They both seem to just "get it" when it comes to explaining things in a manor that helps people understand.

Again my thanks goes out to them both and also I forgot in the original post to thank NB also so thank you NB.

Fuzzy

~~Fuzzy~~


Nightguy_1961 55M
4866 posts
6/4/2006 3:59 am

Thank you for reading my blogs and pointing others to it....

I'm glad that you have an interest in BDSM....I hope that you can find someone who will take you in hand and lead you gently into our dark world of sexuality....

NG61....disappearing back into the shadows...


fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
6/4/2006 2:04 pm

NG,

I feel privilaged to have you visit my blog. I thank you again for that. And you are most welcome Sir for the referal. I also hope I can find someone to lead me gently.

Fuzzy

~~Fuzzy~~


ohcurious14 59M
1683 posts
6/5/2006 11:24 pm

Fuzz, You know I wish you nothing but the best and will be your eyes,ears,hands and all else you need for however long as you deem necessary.


fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
6/6/2006 5:33 pm

OC sweetie I know. And for once I have nothing more to say.

Welcome back,

Fuzzy

~~Fuzzy~~


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