I'm Home or Am I  

fancy_for_you 39F
3003 posts
5/8/2006 3:13 pm

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6/4/2006 3:24 pm

I'm Home or Am I


I am home, though I don't know why I call it that now. I've always been told home is where the heart is and to be honest my heart at the moment sure the hell ain't in Kansas no more Toto. You all made me feel so welcome and included me is everything I was up for. I enjoyed myself completely and for the first time I came outta my shell. When it was time to leave it was so hard to know I was going more than a few towns away. Also not knowing when I will get at chance to come back. I teared up when I got in STA's car to head back to her place. I teared up again when I wrote the thank you post to the hostesses and hosts. I tried to keep it together at the train station but I think STA could tell how much it hurt to say good bye. Once in my seat on the train I finally let it all out. .....Cried so hard for so long the other passengers even sent for the conductor to check on me.......so I made myself stop crying and I sat and stared out the window. When I finally got off the train at 4am and crawled into the truck with my friends they emediately started asking how my trip was and again I teared up and imformed them I wanted to stay and never come back to Kansas. My friends kept telling me for someone who had a good time I sure did look like I lost my best friend......they don't know how true that is. I count you all as the best friends I could ever have. You all accepted me for me, which no one not even my family has ever done. I finally got home to my house at 2:30pm this afternoon and imediately went to get the dogs who were by the way happy to see me.....then I came home and got on here. I have read the responces to my thank you post and those comments brought tears to my eyes again. You all will never know how much you all mean to me.....as friends.

A special thanks goes out to STA, BB, Kitty, Maiden, Elf, Flyrodder, OC, and NB for making me feel so comfy with everything and being understanding when I wasn't. Also for dealing with the embarassing moment with my bloodsugars in the main room. I honestly think Fly & Elf could tell I would need someone to lean on and they became my comfort zone people. Then again OC, NB, and Maiden became extra comfort zone people. I thank you all for that. You all will always have a special place in my heart.

The other thing that made it hard to leave was Nessa & Hellz. They mean the world to me and I didn't wanna leave them at all. I hated walking away from the motel the next morning and leaving Nessa behind.

Love ya all,

Fuzzy

Oh and PS......STA didn't appreciate the wet spot in the back seat of her car on the ride to the train...lol....all those bumps with my ummmm thingling body was a strange but ummmmm so good combination.


~~Fuzzy~~


lifeisablast333 53M

5/8/2006 10:24 pm

Cool story, and welcome to the blogs, hope you are having fun, stop by our blog sometime for a visit....the redneck


Flyrodder55 61M

5/9/2006 11:23 am

Glad you made it home ok....I was sorry to see you go... I had a blast at breakfast.... that Cracker Barrel and waitress won't be the same.... damn... we corrupted yet another young waitress... LOL

Hope you can make it to another meet... I think I can speak for all those there that we all enjoyed having you there. I am glad that I could help to make it special for you.

Now just imaging what a meet will be like now that you know what to expect and are able too tell who you want...what you want..when you want... without worrying about nerves or being rejected or unwanted. You know this group will accept you no matter what!

Thanks for being you Fuzzy!


Da_Lone_Elf 50M

5/9/2006 11:24 am

I'm so glad you made back to you place of residence safely. It was equally as hard for us to say good-bye to you and the others Sunday morning. I'm not the least bit surprised at your tears on the long lonely train ride back to KS. We at least were able to share our trip home with each other and a friend as well.

It was my pleasure to be part of your comfort zone, while you became one of mine.

**HUGS & KISSES**
Da Elf


fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
5/10/2006 9:45 pm

Fly my dear man. After you knocked me down onto that bed for a hug and a kiss my nerves flew right out that window. After that it was just the new ideas and things that embarrassed me. You are one of the main ones who made me feel so comfortable there.

It's also nice to know someone missed me when I left. I was so worried that no one even gave me a second thought after I left. And you damn right I am gonna be back for another one. It might be later in the year but I miss you all so much nothing could keep me away.

Oh just next time no breaking the bed ok. lol. Sorry Nessa, did you get billed extra for that yet?

Hugs & Kisses & Nipple twists for ya.

Fuzzy

~~Fuzzy~~


fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
5/10/2006 9:50 pm

Elf Elf Elf are you trying to make me cry yet again. Knowing someone noticed I was gone means the world to me. You all will always have a place in my heart from now on.

Oh and next time sweetie just tell me to be patient ok....lol. As you now know though patience isn't my strong point.

Hugs and Kisses

Fuzzy

~~Fuzzy~~


ohcurious14 59M
1683 posts
5/23/2006 7:56 am

Fuzzy, I'm not gonna say much cuz somehow i missed this post and i am ashamed. All i'm gonna say is WOW and oh so SWEET. I enjoyed you soooooo much.Hurry and get back to Illinois sweetie.


fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
5/25/2006 6:25 am

    Quoting lifeisablast333:
    Cool story, and welcome to the blogs, hope you are having fun, stop by our blog sometime for a visit....the redneck
Ty, though this wasn't a story it's all true. And I will try to get to your blog soon. Sorry it took so long to reply....I have trouble getting confirmation #'s so I can respond.

Fuzzy

~~Fuzzy~~


Mistress_Nessa 40F

6/4/2006 2:59 pm

My dear Fuzzy,

I started missing you before you reached the car. I hope that sometime soon, we can have you back here again.

Love,
Always & Forever

~ Nessa ~


fancy_for_you 39F
3014 posts
6/4/2006 3:24 pm

Nessa

You better believe I am coming back sometime soon. Nothing anyone could do short of putting me in a hosiptal could keep me away.

Fuzzy

~~Fuzzy~~


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