When all flows out  

evilgothgirl 51F
326 posts
6/17/2006 5:27 pm

Last Read:
6/20/2006 7:41 pm

When all flows out

Is it the pain inside
That makes her cry
Or is it the thought of crying
That makes her feel pain

The feeling of being forgotten
Like she does not matter
All the pain inside
Stays bottled up

Waiting for someone to twist the cap
Waiting for someone to care
What will happen when the cap is taken off
Will all the devastation flow out continuously

Maybe the anger will take over
Pacing back and forth
Wondering where her place is on earth

She sits and continues to wait
As her nails dig deep into her palms
The pressure builds up
Water leaks down her face

she feels her pulse raising
Blood pressure rising
Any moment now
The rage will take the lead

Not being able to grab hold
she looses control
"Am I even worth anything"
"I feel lonely"

Waiting for someone to take her hand
Still no one comes to aid her
What did I do to deserve this
What have I done

Breathing in deeply but slowly
She tries to calm herself
It doesn’t seem to work
Thoughts building in her head

What does it mean
Could it be a simple mistake
Or carelessness

Yet once again
Amazed she feels
"I don’t feel human"
"How could I be forgotten"

The taste of salt on her lips
From the tears of hate
Is it the pain inside
That makes her cry

Or is it the thought of crying
That makes her feel pain

rm_agathon12 46M
1311 posts
6/17/2006 6:04 pm

Not mine but...:

I want to vanish
This is my fondest wish
To go where I cannot be captured
Laid on a decorated dish
Even in splendor this curious fate
Is more than I care to surrender
Now it's too late

Whether in wonder or indecent haste
You arrange the mirrors and the spools
To snare the rare and precious jewels
That were only made of paste

If you should stumble upon my last remark
I'm crying in the wilderness
I'm trying my best to make it dark
How can I tell you I'm rarer than most
I'm certain as a lost dog
Pondering a sign post

I want to vanish
This is my last request
I've given you the awful truth
Now give me my rest.

--Elvis "ridiculously pretentious" Costello

evilgothgirl replies on 6/17/2006 7:36 pm:
You didn't have to do it, but you did..but you did..but you did....

And I thank you!!


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