Tell your pants...It's not nice to point!!!!  

evilgothgirl 51F
326 posts
8/9/2006 11:02 am

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8/24/2006 6:48 am

Tell your pants...It's not nice to point!!!!

Hell~0 loves...

I love that line..so I had to make it my title today.

As many of the frequent offenders of my blog may have noticed...I can go from sending a giggle filled blog to 1/2 hour later being in the depths of darkeness...This is me...

Today kiddies, is another of those days. I am siting in my office. I look over at the stacks of paper work I really need to do, but, that leads to filing.

I have some accounting duties that need to be tended to.

I have updates to my company website that must be done and submitted to my developer..ASAP.

I have marketing materials to create, and I need to make some sales calls...now.

So what am I doing...yep...bloggin.

The real question is why? Do I really need this outlet? Do I really need to share my feelings and misgivings with others? Do I really care that others may read this, and heaven forbid comment? I guess that would be a yes, since after all I am addressing this to anyone who may read this.. How very sad.

I am at a place right now that only I have created, and only I can dismantle. Fuck!!! I hate being me somedays!!

Hm...what to do...what to do??? It is a full moon tonight, so yes I have spells that I need to cast, but of course I have not made all of my preperations yet. I need to knuckle down for an hour or two and get some company shit done.

Will I get any of that done...no...**she does her best Spicolli*** I'm sooo wasted... Yep liquid lunch again today.

My greatest stumbling block....my B/F. I love him so...I miss him every moment we are not together...I emotionally melt down if I do not get a call from him every morning and afternoon. I go weeks without his touch, which of course makes me quite cranky to say the least. Hell I want him every waking moment, and even in my dreams....You would think...what a lucky man to have someone so devoted to him. His every want, his every need, every minute of every day...

Here's the kicker...He does not love me, he does not need me, he does not have any devotion to me, and I barely cross his mind...

Why do I do this to myself? Because I am weak, and I follow my heart, no matter where it leads. Unfortunately for me, it only leads to tears, heartache and bloodshed. Yes, mine,,,not his...but you know.......hee hee.

I bare many a scar that has his name. My arms are covered, but what is worse, my heart and soul are so battered and torn that they will never heal.

Hell, if it were not for sex, I think we would have nothing at all....

Sex...yes he seduces my soul, makes love to my body, but fucks up my head. Cheers...here to some intellectual intercourse....

Argh...I am done ranting, for it has done me no good and wasted your time as well.....back to the razorblades and flesh canvas.

** from Vallo~~HIM~~ Your love is a razorblade kiss***Sweetest is the taste from your lips***


rm_agathon12 46M
1311 posts
8/9/2006 6:08 pm

Sweetie, I have a little secret to tell you: those nasty ass scars on your soul heal. It takes seemingly forever and it hurts like a motherfucker but, they heal. And you will be even stronger for it. Just think: powerful and a great ass. Talk about terrifying. As for Mr. B/F....fuck him. He just won the lottery and threw the ticket away. Fuck him. Anyone that fucking stupid isn't worth your time.


evilgothgirl replies on 8/16/2006 8:27 am:
agathon,

You are such a sweet man. Thanks for the words of encouragement.

rm_Cozmo5877 58M
298 posts
8/11/2006 8:36 pm

It would be MUCH too easy to go off on the whole BF thing..but....when you invest your heart into someone...you leave yourself little choice..where the heart goes, apparently so do you! (Props for intellectual intercourse..an orgasm IS an orgasm!) I will only add this, my most evil of bloggers....the next time your pain drives you down the path of red..remind yourself it is a one way dead end!


BlackHeatLust 47M

8/14/2006 9:42 pm

Interesting post you have here Evil.


evilgothgirl replies on 8/16/2006 8:29 am:
Interesting...hm....I have just started my own she-women men haters club.

As I like to say....Boys are stupid,,,throw ricks at them...

ShyWhisper2006 53F
15175 posts
8/15/2006 4:23 pm

Thoughts and feelings and wanting to be heard ...are never a waste of time ...never... *hugs*


evilgothgirl replies on 8/16/2006 8:30 am:
shy~

Thanks sweets!!

rm_agathon12 46M
1311 posts
8/15/2006 7:23 pm

    Quoting rm_agathon12:
    Sweetie, I have a little secret to tell you: those nasty ass scars on your soul heal. It takes seemingly forever and it hurts like a motherfucker but, they heal. And you will be even stronger for it. Just think: powerful and a great ass. Talk about terrifying. > As for Mr. B/F....fuck him. He just won the lottery and threw the ticket away. Fuck him. Anyone that fucking stupid isn't worth your time.
Respectfully submitted, of course.


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